sort out my priorities

It has been or should have been to have and independent life. Secondly to sort my body out. Both of these situations have just got worse.

and try and make a life for myself here. I’m torn really between staying and trying and going and having no support but doing exactly what I want. I wish I could figure out somewhere inbetween. I just know that I cannot be myself here whatever I try I just have to get away. So my priority is leaving here. What ever I do at least it will be real but it is a lot to give up. I probably won’t have 43 things anymore.