lose weight

woooowwzerss.. i haven’t written in forever.. it is now june freakin 6th. so i totally stopped my “diet” the second i went home (i moved away for school but i drive home on the weekends)... i’m serious.. it is IMPOSSIBLE to eat good when i am not at my apt. see.. at my apt. i have no food so it’s easy!! when i’m home.. there’s all this junk food and baked goods and my mom never cooks anymore so all we do is go out to eat. uggghhh. plus i was bloated so i kinda gave up. but i have been in a bad mood lately.. so i kinda lost my appetite. i weigh like 144/145 right now. at least it went down from 147.. cuzzzzzz…. i actually got up to 150 when i was home.. eeks i know. :x well i figured i’m on a mission to lose at least 15 more pounds. i don’t really need to, i actually have a good body.. i’m tall and toned so i look like i weigh around 130. but it’s just for my satisfaction.. i know i could look even better if i lost more weight. wellll.. i want to start writing what i eat again, b/c like i said i am ON A MISSION :D and this helps me..
breakfast-smore luna bar (mmm need i say more)
lunch-nothing
dinner-half blackened chicken salad

anddd that’s it. i’ll prolly make coffee later but who knows. i’m tired. byebye!

grr.. i am on this new medicine and it keeps me up allll night. i tried to go to bed last night around 12:30 (i had to wake up at 6 for school).. but instead i just layed there and what do you know.. all i could think of was food!.. hahah. my body was literally shaking yesterday.. probably b/c i ate like SHIT last week.. and i actually started eating good yesterday. but anyway.. i finally got out of bed around 1 and went on the computer b/c that usually helps drain some energy from me, but then i got bored and started looking for food b/c i was hungry.. and just as a i was about to bust open a bag of salt and vingegar chips (mmm.. 1 of my ultimate weaknesses).. i decided to opt for another apple :/ apples have negative calories tho right?? so i felt better and then went to bed. bla. soo here i am today. and here is what i ate:
breakfast- nothing (tsk tsk i know.. but i was running late for school)...
lunch-went to tim hortons w/ a girl @ school for our lunch break.. but i just got a plain bagel w/ light cream cheese. and opted to drink my disgusting aquafina water instead of getting my #1 love- coffee (w/ c+s) :(, and a small spinach salad w/ balsamic dressing (the new spritzer kind=1 cal/spray.. loves it!)
..and i haven’t had dinner yet, obviously.. but i have to work from 4-8ish.. so i’ll probably just have toast when i get home w/ some jelly. we’ll see tho.. i’ll edit this later :)

ugh.. so sick of my weight “yo-yo-ing”!! i wouldn’t really consider myself FAT.. but it probably wouldn’t hurt to lose some weight either. :P i’m 5’7 and currently weigh 147. and that is 20lbs more than what i weighed last year.. 127 (my lowest was 123.. but i looked kinda gross). so i would definitely love to lose at least 20lbs! i tend to go on these weird out of the blue “diet days”.. for example, 2 weeks ago i started and got my weight down to 144.. in just a week. then last week i went home and ate really bad.. so now i’m back to 147 (my weight usually never exceeds that.. although one time i got up to like 152 after a cruise.. TSK TSK!!)..

i need to stop eating good.. then eating bad.. then good..then bad.. i want to stick w/ eating GOOD!

so i guess these entries are for my own personal motivation.. something to look at and see how i’m doing day after day. i’m starting a food diary to track down what i eat & drink ..then writing down my weight at the beginning of the next entry to show how i did the day before.

bla.. i hate diets. hehehe.

STARTING WEIGHT: 147
breakfast- 1 luna bar (the smore kind.. yum!!.. i am seriously addicted), bowl of applesauce
lunch-spinach salad w/ balsamic dressing & croutons, 1 apple, 2 cups of black coffee
dinner-1 serving of meatless ribs