heal from abuse

this is my new account since i cant seem to get into my old one and not sure why so im just reposting everything ok
my old account was xXThe-Little_FairyXx

hi…….....ummmmmm…uhh…well i live wikth my uncle.before my father died i was abused by him sexualy emotionaly verbaly and physicaly…now my uncle abuses me to the same way…im still living with it but im trying to heal from the past to..it wasnt just family who abused me but i was bullied by school stadff and other kids all my life.i want to heal…..but im not sure i can
but i just dont know..how can i heal from abuse if its still occuring…...and why did i have to be such a horribler person why couldnt i just be the good kind that never gets hit