eat less

SO whatever, life is starting to suck again. And for me, it seems like theres a direct correlation between whether I’m losing or gaining weight, and its better when I’m losing. Also, i’m getting to afraid of starving, so starving should make it better. I’ve continually proven to myself that I can’t eat in moderation, so I’m gonna see how I can do at not eating at all.
Tea, black coffe, and lemon water. Sweet tea with splenda is okay.

That iswhy its a goal.
I keep telling myself that I’ll do this, but it just doesn’t happen. LIke today, I wa like i’ll eat less. Okay. But then I got to lunch, and I was like I’ll skip cake. ok. Then I realized the food was sandwiches, and they give us the huge submarine sandwiches, so I was like i need to get a piece of cake, so I can use the saran rap to keep the second half of the sandwich.
So yeah, eating less; not achieved.
I rationalize, and think in the moment, not good.
In retrospect, however this was good as I didn’t have time to go to dinner, so said second half of sandwich became dinner.

But must eat less; am getting stomach.