ask my crush out

after getting up the courage to ask out my crush, we went out for like 2 months. and it was the best two months of my life. we seemed to be very good for eachother. all of his friends told me how happy he was, and i talked to his sister, who said that he actually smiles when she’s with him. I thought that we had something special. then all of a sudden, he comes over to my house and tells me that he needs some time of his own, and breaks off our precious relationship. he told me that i made happier than anyone ever has, he told me that he had feelings for me that he had never had for anyone, and he told me that he cares about me. but that he just needs some time to himself. okay, it’s been like 2 weeks without him, and i haven’t received a phonecall, or anything. this sux.

okay. i did it. well, kind of. i let him know that i was interested in pursuing our relationship. he said that he agreed with me. (yay) but that there was a problem: he informed me that my best friend, amber, had the same feelings for him as i do. we both immediatley felt horrible. but the amount of excitement of knowing that he felt the same way for me, as i do for him, overpowered the feeling of knowing that me bestfriend was extremely mad at me. anywho- i’m just very happy that we are together now. i haven’t been this happy in a long time. :)

alright, today is the day that i am going to be hanging out with him and amber. i can’t wait. maybe things will be alright, and maybe the will go very well.

okay, so i’m kinda half way there. i was with a different group of friends last night, and we went to denny’s, but my best friend was with him, and she called me because they were at perkins, so she wanted me to come say “hi”, so i went to perkins to say hi, and now the 3 of us are going to hang out on tuesday… i’m so excited…

okay, this is going to sound weird, but whenever I’m in the same room, or around my crush, we always make eye contact, and keep it for like an entire minute, then we just keep walking, or either I’ll look away, or he’ll look away. I want to say something to him, but I don’t think I’ve ever made it a big deal like this before. usually, i could just go up to the guy and talk to him, but not this one. It’s so weird, but if anyone has any advice, let me know. thanks

this sounds so juvenile, but, i do have a bit of a “crush.”