be a good mother

Beautiful Boy by John Lennon
(substituted a few words)

Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He’s on the run and your mommy’s here,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It’s getting better and better,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we’ll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it’s a long way to go,
But in the meantime,

Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While your busy making other plans,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
Darling,
Darling,
Darling Gabriel.

This morning I took Gabie to his last day of Kindergarten. That is amazing! I cannot believe my little baby really is growing up. After this summer, he will be entering 1st grade. Wow.

A Mother’s Love
by Helen Steiner Rice

A Mother’s love is something
that no on can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendoured miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God’s tender guiding hand.

Somedays I wish he came with an instruction manual and there are days I want to pull my hair out. No matter what though, at the end of the day I know it’s all worth it because he is my son.
I am in the process of getting Gabriel evaluated for ADD-inattentive type. It breaks my heart. He is a little dreamer, lost in the clouds, lost in his little world. A butterfly. As his mommy, I need to be that guiding hand, that shining light. He is at a time of need and I cannot fail him by breaking down. Somedays it is hard to keep up with him, somedays it is hard to reach him. I wish I could say I had a perfect child, but over the years I’ve learned that perfect doesn’t exist. Life’s not a fairy tale, at least not for me.
But what I do know is that I need to make the most of our lives. I am constantly reading up on how to help him, trying new things everyday. I’ll never give up. I know I’ll get him through it.

Friday was Gabie’s 6th birthday. What a nice little birthday he had. My mother came to town to visit for the weekend and we all went to the movies to see Beverly Hills Chihuahua. Gabie loves chihuahuas so it was perfect. We had some cake that night and gave him his presents. The next day was his birthday party at the children’s museum. It was a success! 11 children showed up, all of them excited to play! The parents dropped them off and the party began. The theme was Ben 10. (Gabie is obsessed with Ben 10). The kids sure were a handful, but with the help of my mom, sis, and Bri, it was a good time for us all. Before I knew it, the party was over. Sunday was my sister Cindy’s birthday. She was in town visiting too. We took her out for a nice dinner before they took off to go back home. Just as I was getting ready to kick back and relax, Gabie got a boo-boo. A kind of major boo-boo. He was playing with one of those weights that are used to hold balloons and was swinging it around his face before it struck him right on his eyebrow and sliced the skin open. Off to the emergency room we were, and luckily he didn’t get stitches (the doctor gave us the option of stitches or a kind of super glue). He is all bandaged up and good now. I am just thankful for that! What a weekend, to say the least.

Gabie will be turning six in two weeks. It scares me to think that that many years have gone by since I was stretched out on the hospital bed, unsure of what to expect…unsure of the future…so young and yet…I had to grow up in a matter of nine months. And there I was, clueless on a hospital bed.
But the days went by and then the weeks and months and this little baby was mine, all mine. At first the world seemed to be against us, but that didn’t stop us. We kept on going and growing.
Now here we are today. When I once was lost, along came a little boy, and now I am found.
It’s going to be six years in two weeks. Six years since his first breath took my own breath away.

“A Mother’s Love Determines How”
(by author unknown)

A mother’s love determines how
We love ourselves and others.
There is no sky we’ll ever see
Not lit by that first love.

Stripped of love, the universe
Would drive us mad with pain;
But we are born into a world
That greets our cries with joy.

How much I owe you for the kiss
That told me who I was!
The greatest gift-a love of life
Lay laughing in your eyes.

Because of you my world still has
The soft grace of your smile;
And every wind of fortune bears
The scent of your caress.
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Happy Mother’s Day to all you mothers! May today be a day filled with joy and not a worry around! May your heart be filled with love as you rejoice in your children’s laughter, because it is for them that we do all we do. And for that, we must be proud on this day to call ourselves “Mom”!

LOL but Not 3 KIDS!!! Oh no. But a mommy to 1 boy and two kitties.

This past weekend we saw temperatures in the 60s! That’s a big change from the freezing temps we’ve had for a few months now. So we went to the park and it was like a dream come true for Gabie to be reunited with his bike!

To all the mamas on 43things, have a wonderful Valentine’s!! Especially those who were up late last night preparing Valentine’s cards and treats for your child’s class! Lol.