control my temper

but i really, really want to start working on this. I just lose my temper too easily. Not all the time of course, but surely quite a lot. I just get frustrated and annoyed easily at little things. When I really lose my temper, I sometimes start to throw things. Particularly things that can break, like glass.
I am not proud of this at all! Maybe I need help or something but I get this sort of pleasure when I am upset or annoyed, by throwing and breaking things. Like last night. I got so mad while we were moving the rest of our things out of storage into the apartment. I realized that the fridge had gotten scratched and I just kind of blew up. I decided to throw a lamp and I broke it. I know, now that I write about it it sounds ridiculous. I was mad that something got damaged, so I went and damaged something else! Yeah, I know…
Well, over the years I have broken a lot of things. I regret it later and feel sad when I realize what I’ve broken or damaged. I just can’t find another way to deal with frustration.
Maybe it doesn’t help that when I was growing up I saw my mom do this a lot when she fought or argued with my dad.
I need help!