lose weight

I don’t want to go to work this morning lol. I’m going though. It will help my day go faster….although not being awake at 6:30 would do that too.

Yesterday I wanted to binge all day long, since Rich left and I hate that. I wanted chips and crackers and stuff with cheese or icecream…but I didn’t eat any of that junk. The only problem is that keeping myself from doing that kept me from eating much of anything. I ended up eating a luna bar (180 calories) and drinking green tea (0 calories) as my sustenance for the day.

I didn’t eat anything unhealthy!

Oh and I was feeling all blue and mopey all day, thinking I was stuck alone for two weeks…then last night the hubby called to talk and guess what? He will be here thursday or friday!!!! They are coming back for the weekend. I only have today + 2 to wait!!!!

You can’t imagine how happy that makes me. I’m dressed so I’m going to power nap for 20 minutes and then go to work. Later everyone! (hmmm I just remembered that I can’t remember the last time I weighed myself…I know the weight just not how long it’s been, certainly a week…)

Ugh. I had too many calories today. The food wasn’t that unhealthy so that makes it better. I had some lean chicken with potatoes earlier for lunch but dinner was not healthy whatsoever, I ate a few chips and a sandwich, french bread with pepperoni and mozerella toasted and all melted. Good but not good for me. I guess it isn’t so bad it’s not like I have eaten anything unhealthy or too full of calories for over a month, so I’m sure one day doesn’t hurt.

I am not very happy though. My husband is leaving again! Another two weeks without him. I hate this. I wish he didn’t have to do all of this but apparently these short things are in preparation for his float he’s going on in march. I am pretty happy he’s going on a ship instead of going to afghanistan or iraq the whole 7 months. He’s already been deployed to iraq twice. I really wish this was over with. I wish he was finished with the military and we could start our lives. But he has another four years of uncertainty left.

I really don’t enjoy the thought of another two weeks with him away, so soon. He just got back and life is so much funner when he’s here.

I will make it though, and I have you guys and some friends here this time to get me through.

Wow my job was an incredibly good workout today. Definitely counts as weight lifting and cardio…hours and hours of weightlifting and cardio lol. Like 9.5 hrs. Nice.

I am surprisingly not that tired atm though. I feel pretty good.

I had a luna bar (180 cals) and a green tea (70 cals) for lunch. And breakfast was orange juice (60 cals). I certainly burned all of my cals and more today so I should have gotten around to burning off my stored nastiness.

love you all

Yesterday was great. I was moving constantly throughout work so I got a good eight hours of calorie burning there. For brunch I had a luna bar (180 cals) and a green tea (70 cals, bringing totol to 250 cals).

Ugh but then for dinner I had a few onion rings and a grilled cheese. That was sooooo not nutritional in any way. My only reason for really not caring about the calories and fat in that is that afterwards my husband and I went to this sick concert we’ve had the tickets since they came out. OMG it was great, we saw tantric, drowning pool and saliva in this small club here so we were right next to them. Needless to say jumping and dancing around certainly took care of my grilled cheese and onion rings, no big deal!

Ew I did get spit on though. One of the guys on stage in saliva enjoyed spitting his bottled water on the crowd, a lot. I guess he is the saliva part lol.

I am about to go to work. I think I will grab a Luna bar before. They are great. They have alot less calories than most energy bars (around 130-180) but I use them as a meal replacement. They are filling and have a lot of great things in them specifically designed for women. They kick slim fast bars butts. I like that there are so many different flavors, you don’t get bored with them.

Yay I have earlier hours that I’m working today and hubby and I should get off at the same time so I actually get to see him unlike yesterday. He was already asleep when I got home :(. Good thing this isn’t a permanent thing, just this week.

Have a great day everyone.

Yep pictures don’t lie…my pants are much too big now and I love it!

I had to make a change so yesterday I dyed my blonde hair a dark reddish brunette color. I look much better with this color of hair, I had it like this a year ago. Loved it. Love it now.

I haven’t eaten anything yet today. I am getting ready to go get something healthy for lunch. I think I may get a salad somewhere.

I hope my husband gets off of work before I leave for mine. He will probably be asleep before I get home and an hour or something with him conscious would be nice. He has some awful hours this week, getting up at 4 a.m.

xoxo
val

I am starting slow with that like I said. Before I really start hitting the gym I’m doing at home things. Working on flexibility again and doing ab workouts, lunges, pushups, running in place. The easy stuff. Easing my body back into everything.

I still can’t lift, it’s not been quite 6 weeks so I will have to avoid anything too heavy, but that won’t last much longer. I’ll be good to go in every way in a week!

After I’ve worked my way up to close to normal on the above (which won’t take long, I’m not in as bad of shape as I had feared) then I will start hitting the gym. I’ll do a stair step approach with my running adding time (like 5 minutes) ever 2 runs (or less if I feel ready).

Weight lifting, I’ll start with light weights and high repitition and then move back up to actual lifting like I used to do. Then the body sculpting will start again.

But taking those easy and adding things, not jumping head first, will work, I’m sure of it. Time for work. I get alot of good exercise in doing that actually. Thank goodness I have a more active job, not sitting or being still ever.

The hubby is being soooo sweet, which is normal. He does so many little things that make me smile. I’m enjoying my life more than I ever have before and it feels good.

I’ve had a great week. My hubby is home and my appetite is back. I’ve been making healthy choices and my weight hasn’t changed, but that’s a good thing. I haven’t gained weight! I have been loving it though, him being home again!

He did notice the weight loss too.

Ugh we went shopping together, I ended up getting nothing at all. I hate this body that I’m in at the moment. I wanted to burst into tears just looking at the stuff I would have loved 9 months ago and rocked. Now I couldn’t even bring myself to take them to the dressing room.

I felt like crying the rest of the day. I didn’t let Rich know though. I just told him I didn’t feel like wasting money on clothes since I was planning on losing quite a bit more inches eveywhere and nothing would fit for long. It’s the truth but not the real reason, I couldn’t bear to look at myself in skinny jeans now.

I’m making a huge plan. I’m going to do a full body overhaul. I am going to be in better shape than ever. I think I am now ready to work out. I think I’ve rested enough. I feel perfectly fine all the signs to the contrary are all gone. I’m ready!

I’m going to start small but increase speed and weight with my workouts gradually. I want the fit type of body, not the skinny like I used to strive for. I want the kind you look at and know it took some work and looks healthy.

Wish me luck!

This is just the beginning of my day, I usually put an entry at the very end of my day so this is odd.

Yesterday…For dinner I had a salad with 100 cals worth of chicken, cheese, and croutons with fat free dressing about 60 cals and the lettuce of course which is below 15 cals. I also drank a little tea…about 40 cals. For lunch I had 120 cals of expresso with and cream and a diet green tea which was 0 cals. total:335 cals

My husband came home yesterday! When I got off work he was here. I’m so so so happy! Sleeping is so much easier with him. I’ve been having difficulties with it since he left. No problems last night.

I can’t wait to finish work and I haven’t even started lol. That’s not a good sign. I leave in about 10 minutes. I hope this day goes by quickly, I want to spend time with Rich. I guess we’re going to cuddle and watch a scary movie tonight…halloween is coming after all.

I only have one day of waiting left, I work tomorrow so my last full day should go by quickly. FINALLY! Gosh, these last 2 weeks and a few days have just dragged on and on and on and on…well you get the picture. Finally my husband will be home and I won’t be alone anymore, which I hate.

today:
turkey wrap
2 diet cokes
iced coffee

Today I didn’t do a whole lot finished some of the cleaning I wanted to finish. Speaking of, I should get to bed so I can wake up early enough to get the rest finished tomorrow. Ahhhh, crap I left some clothes in the washing machine they need to dry. The second I finish this entry I’m going to go do that. Geez I just want to go to sleep and get through tomorrow so this wait will all be over.

One nice thing is I am a whole lot smaller than when he left, lets see if he notices.

Goodnight everyone!