go on a date

i guess i have completed this goal, but not the end result i wanted. i went on a couple of dates with a guy that blew me off, not the end result i was hoping for, but who doesn’t hope for a happy ending? i will continue trying to go on dates, when i meet a quality guy. And will try to be a little bit more protective of my heart. Lesson learned, not without some pain, but worth it.

so the guy i was so enamored with, has blown me off. that’s ok. it really really hurt my feelings for the past week or so, but i’m better off, you know? i just wish he would have not led me on and just said ‘hey, i don’t like you, i don’t want to see you anymore’ instead of me sitting around at night and waiting and waiting for the call he promised that never came. i’m better off though, that’s how i look at it… it’s his loss if he doesn’t want to continue to get to know me! i’m a fabulously interesting and cute person & i will find someone who will be so intrigued and enamored with ME and treat me equally as well as i want to treat someone special! so no regrets. just have to keep my heart more protected than i have in the past.

disheartened. so disheartened. i thought i was a good judge of people and thought it was pretty obvious we both really dug each other & shared a magical kiss, but i was wrong. and it really hurts, and it upsets me because i am so willing to get emotional about someone i just met. i must resolve to not wear my heart on my sleeve. i hate to become jaded….

i’m impatient. i really like the guy & i’m ready for the second date, but we have very different schedules. hopefully we will be able to schedule something again soon.

i went on a date! sorta. we met up at an outdoor bar and chatted for about 2 hrs. no kiss, but he did give me a hug (we are both shy, so i was happy with a hug). he called me an hour after we left too – to make sure i got home safely. how sweet! i have to say, i do believe he may be smitten with me!

so its time for me to start dating again. not that i am needy, in contrast, i am very independent, but it’s time for me to get out there and put myself out and meet new people & maybe build a relationship? :) i want a relationship, but not going to settle. i am terribly picky and thats why i have only had a couple relationships.