Happiness is a hard thing to find. I’ve seen it, I’ve pined for it, I’ve attempted to get it, but ongoing satisfaction is difficult to find. It’s not that I’m never happy, but I am merely finding that being happy over, well, trivial things that evaporate as quickly as they come is hardly satisfying. My goal is to find something that makes me truly happy, the thing that defines me as a person and makes me whole.
I don’t have many hobbies, so to speak, so that would be a good place to start. As a high school student, I’m doing incredibly well academically at the moment (and that’s not in any way bragging). But that isn’t equating to much personal satisfaction, so although I will continue trying to do well, I want to turn my focus to other things. Whatever will that be?
I’ve been discussing it with my family and friends recently. I’m thinking of looking into photography, because it sounds like a lot of fun and I don’t have the knowledge to operate my own camera! So I’ll see about looking into that.
Alternately, I might “wake up” from my writing hiatus. Yes, that’s right – I’ve hit the dreaded writer’s block. Or rather, I did. Months ago, and it makes me feel absolutely awful. But rather then waking back up to the uncompleted novel, I’ll try a novella, maybe. Just to get into it and excited, again.
Anyway, we’ll see. These are just random ideas I’ve thrown out there.
