change my name

It’s gone from wanting to change my whole name, to changing my first name, then to changing my last name. But I think I just want to change my last name – for now. My dad doesn’t live here anymore so I thought well what’s the point keeping his name? Mum wants to change hers [i suggested a name and she LOVES IT] and i thought well dad isn’t here, he had the choice to move 1000km away, he could have stayed in town but no. I don’t hate him, I just see no point keeping his name if I don’t like it. I’m going to lose it when I get married anyway, so if I was a guy it would be a different story. I kinda hope he doesn’t get offended because there is no real reason why I want to change my last name [other than the fact I want to], but I guess he had the choice to split up with my mum and move so far away. So I guess changing my name won’t hurt him as much as what he did hurt me. So I’m still gonna do it, although I might just think about changing my other middle name and first name for a bit. I want to change into a whole new person [and it’s happening right now] so I think changing my last name and perhaps adding something in to my other names will help me do this.

My parents split up a year ago but never got a divorce, but mum feels like she needs one to move on. I understand. She then told me she wants to change her last name because if she keeps his she feels connected to him still. I gave up wanting to change my name because it was such a big thing and I didn’t think people would accept it. But if my mum does this then I think she will help me do it as well. Now I just have to confirm a name.

I made a list of all the names I really liked, then I joined my two favourite as the first name I would like and I want my middle name to become my last name.
I’ve talked to my mum about it and she just wants me to be happy, no matter what my name is :)