emo

i havent cut since me and my boyfriend broke up a few monthes ago, and it was nothing compared to the damage i did myslef a few years ago.
emo is not about the cutting. emo was a styler of music and dress ect that was considered dark and “emo” so cutting became a part of it. which is stupid, like i relate the two, but only cause thats what everyone does. i was cutting before emo was a “trend” and no one called me emo.

i would cut again. but only if i had nothing else left, i just ignored the temptation for long enough that it didnt become a priority now i just smoke a joint or drink or fuk myslef up in other ways:D

i wuldnt encourgae anyone to cut but at the same time ive been there and its no use telling someone to stop its a personel choice.

im a cutter and i have nothing against cutters. i understand. i think there are different ways to label someone emo tou can go by the way the look or the way they talk. or feel about themselves…emo didnt exist 3 years ago.. i was depressed than and no one called me emo until the whole trend came out so anyone who dresses in black and looks “grunge” is emo. i have nothing against the label and people try to get a reaction by calling me emo, it honestly dosent offend me.

i got drunk the other day and grabbed a shaving razor and did my arm… i wasent really thinking about it cause now i have to hide it.

emo rocks. wheteher cutting is emo attention seeking or whatever it works for me sometimes, i dont encourage people to cut, but i understand at the same time. everyone has their reasons.

dont underestimate emo. its not just a look.

i feel like cutting lately dont care if there better ways to deal with it or whatever id rather feel pain.

i think people label emos by what they look like they dont care about the reasons why or the feelings underneath i dont think cutting should be associated with emo cause i find its a tension thing to relieve myself i cut. i like the whole emo image but cutting is a separate part to me.

i dont do it as often i think about it but i push it away until i cant stand not to do it. i dont know how people can cut so deep to need stitches. i like the pain but it scares me as well.

ive been cutting sice i was 12 im nearly 15 my legs are ruined. i only have a session about 3 times a week now i used to use glass but now i use little shaving razors which work a treat:]

my boyfriend wants me to stop but i havent found a good enough reason too yet i mean if it makes me feel better, takes me away from where im at even for a little bit it has to be worth something? its my body ill do what i want with it.

ive also taken a great liking to piercings i do most of mine myself but they always get too infected so i take them out ive pirced my wrist twice and the inside of my arms where you shoot up 3 times and my hip once. the safety pins rust though so i guess its a bit dangerous:0

i cut tonight i drew a smiley except he wasent smiling and he had crosses for eyes:]
im used to the whole emo stereotype i just dont give a shit anymore i just say look i was emo before emo was emo so fuck up
ive neever tried to stop cutting sometimes i go for a few monthes but like any addiction it creeps abck up and it wont leave you alone until you do ..it happens slowly something bad will happen and ill want to scream and ill think i just wanna rip that blade through my wrist but i wont do anything but eventually i do

my friends except me for who i am and what i do they can tell me to stop or to talk about it but they know nothing will come of it its sad that most people think “emos” just cut themselves to fit in and get attention maybe its like that but maybe there is something wrong but cutting is the last thing in the world im worried about