believe in love

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand.
I hope you find out what you want.
I already know what I am.
And if it makes you less sad, we’ll start talking again.
And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am.
I’ll grow old and start acting my age.
I’ll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
A crown of gold.
A heart that’s harder than stone.
And it hurts a whole lot, but it’s missed when it’s gone.
Call me a safe bet. I’m betting I’m not.
I’m glad that you can forgive.
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
If it makes you less sad, I’ll move out of the state.
You can keep to yourself.
I’ll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I’ll take your pictures all down.
Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
It’s cold as a tomb, and it’s dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.
So call it quits or get a grip.
Say you wanted a solution.
You just wanted to be missed.
Call me a safe bet.
I’m betting I’m not.
I’m glad that you can forgive.
I’m only hoping as time goes, you can forget…
So you can forget
You can forget
You are calm and reposed.
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones.
Spring keeps you ever close.
You are second hand smoke.
You are so fragile and thin.
Standing trial for your sins.
Holding onto yourself the best you can.
You are the smell before rain.
You are the blood in my veins.
Call me a safe bet.
I’m betting I’m not.
I’m glad that you can forgive.
I’m only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

when i say that i want to believe in love, it isn’t because i’ve had my heart broken. the boy in my life is the only one who has ever been there. i love that.
but still, i have those moments when i doubt his love. and while we haven’t said i love you, love is there. the words aren’t. but when i start worrying about him leaving or something unreasonable like that, i try to remember to believe in his love.
as long as that love is there, as long as i believe in his love, i have absolutely nothing to worry about. but it’s when i start doubting his love and doubting him, that’s when there’s problems.
but the thing is, there haven’t been problems. and i will believe in his love.