Wow. I think this particular thing is going to be one of the hardest for me. it is an internal work, not an external doing. And I think it will require a good long look at my internal landscape and finding, then facing, my fears, pain and hurt from many years of living.
I imagine it will be kind of like a backpacking trip where I have to carry all that I’ll need with me, except that instead of a tent or food I have to inventory my coping skills and strategies. I know that my inventory is made up of coping skills and strategies that were developed due to unhealthy situations and I know I need to get rid of them and replace with appropriate management skills.
Then, once I have my kit together, I need to decide where I want to go. This is another area that I’ve been slacking as I haven’t been clear about my life path and just wandered around without a clear direction. I’m working on this one though and getting closer to determining a trail.
finally, I’ll have to use the map and my skills to assess where I am, triangulate how to get where I want to go from where I am and trust that I can and will handle everything that crosses my path with courage and strength and appropriate to this immediate instance. I will have to let go of the old thoughts and experiences and truly and deeply consider every circumstance that has me acting in anything but a most loving manner.
Gee, I’m tired just thinking about it. yet I know that living a reaction-based life is not right for me.
Also, I must say I take umbrage at the notation on the screen that this goal takes 1 day to complete. Really??? If you could just snap your fingers and start loving like you’d never been hurt, you must write a book because I would spend big bucks to get this over with. Or maybe I’m looking for too big of a life change.
