Have 3 kids

I started bleeding on Sunday :( I have to go in today to see if it’s a another miscarriage or ectopic. I am very thankful that I have 2 healthy children. I just wanted this one so bad. I wish they could tell me the reason this happens. You think being that it is going to be 2010 they would have concrete answers to things like this. Since I already have 2 children, I don’t think they will send me to a specialist to find out what’s going on. We can try one more time but after that I don’t know…. It just would be crazy to keep putting my body through this again. I hope that the Dr. doesn’t discourage me from trying one more time.

Well tonight I took a home pregnancy test and my husband both saw a very very light 2nd line. The test just says “one line is darker than the other.” I am praying to go that this one is not ectopic or results in a miscarriage. I have had two miscarriages and a recent ectopic :( I am praying that I have a healthy baby boy or girl. We are already blessed with one of each. I have always wanted three children. My fingers are crossed and my I’m praying to god.

I am praying that I get pregnant soon and that we have a healthy baby.

Last Tuesday I had the last appointment regarding my ectopic pregnancy. I was cleared to start running and do all normal activity. The doctor said that there was no concern for eruption. This past Saturday I had the worst Saturday. I had a huge headache with being nausiated. I did not get anything done on Saturday. Then Sunday comes and I have severe stomach cramping. I continued to do a little house cleaning. I was ok by the evening time and I am fine now. I am feeling better and looking forward to a productive week. Now all I have to do is wait for my period again to start trying.

Today I went into the ER due to my menstral flow lasting 14 days. I found out that I have a mass in my left ovary. I probably have an ectopic pregnancy. My on-call Dr. explained the risks of an eruption and that I was very lucky that I came in when I did. I got two shots of Methotrexate to kill of the cells in the fallopian tube. I just hope my body gets back to normal soon.

The cycle starts over again.. My husband and I want to start trying for baby #3. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. I want 3 kids; however, it’s not going to be easy. It’s very difficult trying to balance two children let alone 3. I am up for the challenge. I am hoping once they get a little older it will get easier. I am praying that we get pregnant easily and effortlessly. Most of all I pray for another healthy and perfect baby.

Ok… I am trying to get myself mentally prepared for a 3rd baby. I would like to start trying after my 5K in July!!! I want to then continue to work out while I am pregnant. I don’t want to run or work out that hard because I do not want to have another miscarriage.

I want to try for our third baby before the year is over; however, I just want to enjoy my daughter for now and loose a little weight.

August is so beautiful. We feel so blessed. I would like to get pregnant again this year; however, I would like to loose a little weight first. I am praying to god that when we start trying again that I do not have another miscarriage.

Last week… I had the scare of my life. I went to a specialist to get the non-invasive down syndrome screening done. No big deal since I will be 35 when the baby is due. The first screening (blood work and a special ultrasound) came back fine. The genetic counselor left a message that everything looked fine. I had the 2nd set of test (blood taken and another special ultrasound) and last Tuesday the genetic counselor leaves a rather upbeat message… Hi this is ….. give the office a call. So I called and she explained that my numbers were back and the numbers for a female who is 35 is 1 out of 250 or 270 something.. my number was 1 out of 90 and they recommend an amnio. At that moment I was speechless and told her I had to talk it over with my husband. I got off the phone quickly, told my husband, and had my crying spell. I then called her back because the office was about to close and told her to set up the amnio ASAP. They got me in the next morning. I waited patiently the next afternoon to get the results. I had a few more crying spells.
I got the phone call and everything was fine.