tell him i loved him

I don’t know. I thought I loved him for 3 years. we’ve hardly talked for the past 2 years, but I still held on. I slowly got over it, and now I’m not sure if I was just holding onto that feeling because it was there, it was so real and beautiful and I was special to him, and I was afraid of him, and I was intrigued by him. He has a girlfriend now, and they are perfect together, she’s incredible, but they’re going through a hard time. I’m only writing this so I don’t forget. I never want to forget. She talks to me about it, and I find I’m okay with that. I want him to be happy; She deserves to be happy. I’ll tell him eventually. I think it’s really selfish of me. It’ll only make things more awkward then they are, and it might make him feel bad. But I need to say it, it’s weighing me down.