I have been dating my boyfriend for almost 4 months and we have known each other for about three years now. He is the most amazing man that I know and he treats me like a queen. It’s ridiculous. I feel such love for him, but the time constraint of how long we have been dating makes me question the love. I very much am a person who trusts the validity of feelings based on time. So honestly I do not think I will consider this done until I get engaged or married.
But at this moment in time I would say that I am in love. Very much so :)
The sister and I had a very interesting conversation tonight. We were talking about how hard it truly is for men to vocalize their feelings and how it really is a big deal for a man to tell you his feelings for you. And how a man loves you should be like Christ loves the church. And since we as the church could never love God as much as he loves us, we as woman can never love our husband as much as he loves us. At least not in how a relationship should be.
So it comes to this point. The steps to love are so daunting to me. How do I even get to the point of dating/attraction, much less love? I just have to remember that when I’m being pursued that the best thing that I can do is to be a strong firm woman and to stand behind my man. Well at least when I have a man.
But for now I thank the LORD for this season of singleness and I’m so happy that he knows what he is doing.
Right now in class we’re reading this book called Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis. And he made a point that being in love and loving were different things. Being in love/falling in love refers to the infatuation period of the relationship. And loving someone refers to the actual act and choice of loving someone. It is much deeper and a much mature way to love and care for someone.
I don’t only want to fall in love, but I want to stay in love. I want to value my spouse enough to want to invest my time into making it work even when I don’t want to. I want to love.
All consuming love, 1 Corinthians 13 love, true love, unconditional love.
I’ve never had anything, so when I finally find someone I want it to be true. I want it to be right the first time.
I believe God will give me the right man.