i have a lot of squelched — 1 day ago
anger from suppressing authentic parts of myself to get others’ approval and/or avoid conflict. No one is making me do this. I apparently need to be liked so much that I am willing to hold back parts of myself others don’t like (I’m thinking of someone in particular, can’t say whom). I also feel like this in general—that I go along to get along and that I’ve settled for what’s practical instead of pursuing my dreams [b/c that’s not what grown-ups DO]. I am angry about it but not yet confident enough to say the hell with this person, mostly because we share DNA. Must. Grow. Up.
