Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...

I’ve been extremely busy lately that i never took time to pause, breathe and enjoy life. i’m stuck in a routine that has made me so unhappy right now. i don’t perform well at work anymore, and i’ve wasted soooo much time fantasizing about luxurious travels which i know is not possible in the near future.

just yesterday, my boss reprimanded me at work. that sucks! and it really got me thinking..i need to make changes to get back on track.

so i’ll be taking baby steps of a beautiful change… just revamped my goals on 43T!

aunt s. called up again. not about me anymore, but because she has a for to ask. this time there was less tension… (because she’s asking for a favor?) oh…i dont wanna think that way. I opened up the topic coz i really wanna explain my side. though she listened, she still talked more. and i dont think she understood well.

oh God…grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

why do aunt S. always has to get involved. im soo pissed off.. i’ve made my decisions and technically that’s for me, my life and my reputation. damn it! i know im right…im not stepping on anyone’s toes. in fact its for the other person’s favor. and, still she has something to say about it. f*ck!

People can be very inconsistent with their behavior. That leaves you hanging, clueless on where you stand in his life…

Now…
– i am learning to accept that I can never dictate someone to value me the way that I do him. It’s something subjective…In fact, very subjective that no matter how well you treat that person, its not a guarantee that your friendship will be valued high enough.

- i am having the courage to stay fun and accommodating when he's around; and just be my natural happy self.

- i know that i am special. and i don't deserve feeling less of a person because there are a lot who prices my friendship well. It's just a matter of knowing who to keep in our hearts...those people who really deserve to be loved and cared for.

They’re like everywhere. And i cant believe im in an environment where these rodents thrive.

I hope to be granted the serenity to accept that these people exist and probably that’s just the role they’re meant to play in my life.

I hope to be granted the courage to change the unpleasant things that I do. Not to please them, but for me to become better, and do better at all times.

And have the wisdom to know where to draw the line, the wisdom to know how well to react on things and the wisdom to choose the words that I use….

=)

That, my everyday prayer.
That, made me survive all my tribulations.
That, provided me the guidance in making decisions.
That, I think, is just what we need to live right and live in peace.