quit smoking cigarettes

definitely doing a bit better. just the other day i went the whole day without having one, and the next day i only had one, and yesterday i only had two (while out to dinner with jessica). its weird how i can not think about them at all, but once i do, i crave them. its totally a conscious thing that i should be able to talk myself out of.

so TP quit. basically. as of like a week ago. only very very occasionally will be have a cig now, i’ve only seem him have one since he said he was done. but he did say he was going to start chewing again… gross. i told him i my lips were not touching his while its in his mouth….

so now i’m going to use him as a motivation to quit cigs. since he won’t be smoking anymore, it might be easier to say, i’ll wait to have one, or whatever. but i’m going to make a deal with him, if he agrees. if i quit smoking cigarettes, he has to stop dipping.

so i haven’t been doing too well with this. i haven’t gotten worse or anything, but i haven’t been doing any better… i need to quit. i don’t need to be spending money on them, let alone be ruining my body and skin this way…

okay, so i have smoked marlboro red 100s for the past, i don’t know, 4 years, and i have recently switched to marlboro lights. i know this doesn’t seem like a big deal, but it is. i’ve been cutting down, trying not to smoke so much when i drink, or just because i’m bored or whatever. i’ve been trying to resist cravings (which honestly don’t really happen that much, actual nicotine cravings, its more of a mental thing). then my boyfriend decided to buy a pack of basics, instead of his usual reds (we smoke the same cigs), and i hate basics so i gave him shit. he lit up the first one, inhaled, laughed, and said “wow, it doesn’t even feel like i’m inhaling anything. my lungs must be covered in shit from smoking reds for so long”. i didn’t really think anything then, but i remembered it later and it made me start thinking. if i changed to lights, then it make that much more of a difference. so thats what i did. the next pack i bought were marlboro lights. and i dont intend on going back. at first i regretted it, thought i wouldn’t be able to smoke lights after smoking reds for so long, but now i’m used to it, and they taste normal. its a good feeling.

yeah so i went on spring break and i kinda got myself addicted again. i was doing really good and thought i could handle a week of not controlling it, but turns out i can’t. i’m back up to having like 3 or 4 cigs during weekdays, and more on the weekends (when i’m chillin). so yeah, back to crackin down.

okay, well i’ve been cutting down, kiley hasn’t been doing too good. he cut down a little bit, but not very much. he is still going through a pack in two or three days. i’ve been doing better though, as my packs are lasting me a good 5 days at least. the last pack i had lasted me eight days, but i was sick so it doesn’t really count.

kiley and I made a pact to seriously cut down and quit after he turns 18 (feb 16). he’s going to buy one pack when he turns 18, enjoy it, and then we’re both going to quit. not cold turkey tho. were going to help each other out and drastically cut back until were done. i think that this is going to go well, now that we are doing it together i think we have a chance. its too hard for me to quit, especially completely, when he still smokes.