i want to move out of my hometown so bad. i just changed the name of my goal from “move to the east coast” to “move out of my hometown”. i don’t care where i go right now, i just want to get out. i want to travel a lot, and maybe move between different cities for a little while before i find the right place, or at least travel to a lot of different places for a while. once i really settle down and have a family, i’m ready to stay put, for the most part. i want to find where i belong. and its not here.
kiley and i might actually move to detroit in december… lew moved out there, and we just went and stayed with him for a weekend, and we loved it. we are considering transferring schools between the semesters. its him you have to convince, though, not me. haha
SIDE NOTE: its now the 2nd (tech the 3rd, 2:30am) but i mentioned to my mom today that kiley (my boyfriend) and i might move to detroit in december, and she got totally pissed. it surprised me so much that i got upset with her for being upset. i explained to her all the pros and cons, and she kind of had the “do what you want but i’m not supporting it” attitude by the end, which is better than the “you cannot go live with you boyfriend in detroit” attitude. but kiley and i have been together 2.5 years, and i’m almost 19 and i know were totally young, but just because we live in the same house doesn’t mean that we have to get married or anything. and its such a big step for our relationship, just because kiley has always been totally anti-move away from his mom, because he can’t be on his own, and this way, i can help him become more independent… maybe this is what he needs, but idk maybe its just wishful thinking… but i am not being the mother of that house, so they can forget about that :) maybe i am looking for change in all the wrong places? maybe i want change so bad that i’m overlooking what i’m actually doing? i don’t know, and maybe just going through with it is the only way for me to find out. just because i move in doesn’t mean i have to stay there. i can always find my own place if all else fails. idk. i dont really care. i like not knowing what might happen. i love the excitement of change and moving and new cities and new people, but that is what i’m talking about, when i say that maybe i’m trying to create a good situation out of a potentially destructive one? maybe now i’m being paranoid? haha
