be a doctor

all my papers have gone pretty decent uptil now.
have one paper left tmrw, psychology.
dont feel like studying really, its all rote learning.
i have dropped maths and taken up psycho since im going in the medical field where u dont really need maths.
going out tmrw after such a long tiome. gonna drink my ass of.

my terminal exams are strting tmrw…................yikes!
i am super stressed. i dont wanna study for it, its HSC style that means i have to mug evrything.
its not the objective type that we give for the medical enterance exam. i have 11 chapters in phyics, i have done on 2…...................tonite is gonna be a lolng night baby.
hope i dont flunk!

gave a chemistry test tday. super! my proffesor was really happy with the grade, he even went through my whole paper with me. he was impressed that i could explain my whole paper to him. we started discussing chemistry in detail. pretty good.

had my biology practical exam today. it was pretty good. i dissected the cockroach pretty fast and neatly ans did the mountings even thought it was not required. identified yhe specimens correctly and even did the psamolysis well.
i gave my stuff for evaluation and the proff told me that i had dissected the roach on the wrong side !
lost quite a few marks on that. pissed !

i had my chemistry practicals yesterday. piece of cake. i had to do some volumetric experiments. i love chemistry actually , its hottt !.........haha. stop raising ur eyebrows guys.
but i must admit organic chemisty really gets my juice flowing.
i got 9/ 9 in the experiment and we get 1 mrk for journal. so i got a easy 10/ 10. i was pretty happy.
tday i was supposed to go 4 a Wave Motion test but i dint go cuz yesterday was my moms bday. was partyin the whole day cuz my extended family came over and everyone went crazy eating, dancing, singing. then a crazy dinner. all was good yesterday.
had two cakes too…............mango souffle and death by chocolate. great day !

today i had my physics practical exam…........well it was fun ! mainly because i ommited only one experiment which was LOGIC GATES ! and damn my shit luck !
that the experiment i got. i mean i felt like jus taking that darn paper that had TABLE NO.17 writin on it and bolting from the lab.
so i took my seat and looked at the Question , read it a couple of time. i wrote down the Aim and Apparatus pretty neatly (i was counting on those marks atleast )
i started doing the experiment , just connecting any wire anywhere. trying to get that stupid red light on the IC blink.
there was this super nice guy on the table next to me who helpoed me out alot (to no avail)
the poor guy was strugglin to show me how to connect the darn thng, i strill dint get it. so i pretended i did, and he was so happy…..............i should remember to thank the guy again.
so later i jus made up some readings , drew my very own version of the circuit diagram. looked around the lab for half- an-hour and made funny and sad faces at all the other ppl (i guess nobody studies 4 this crap anymore). had a good time !
i submitted my paper and ran out the room, i dint even wait to get my marks. i told the proff. that i dint wanna know. he was laughin his ass off when i left.

yes i am. i got 19/ 20 in a bio test on Sexual reproduction Prt 1. i was really happy n confident bout my studies.
BUT
physics has always been my weakness, n im stuggling with it. i really suck at it. my proff keeps insisting dat i shouls develop a ‘applicative mind’ bt i really dont thnk i have one. i really dont care bout why the hell the freakin apple fell from dat stupid tree. hes making my life miserable.
last lecture was the most embarrassing moment of my 16 yrs.
we where doin the chapter ELECTRIC CURRENT n i really dont get dat chapter. n he asked me if the circuit was in series or parallel. i guessed the right answer so then he asked me 2 calculate the capacitance or sumthing, it was somethng really easy. u just had to add 10 n 20. but i dint know u had 2. so he told the whole class i dont even know math so i should forget bout physics!
n the whole class started laughing, it was so rude n mean. i hate him! was so depressed the whole day. im still depressed. people plz cheer me up.

dear cockroaches,
firstly i would like 2 apologize 4 killin u in the pursuet of knowledge n my goal of becoming a doctor. i9 know i cut of ur eyes n antenna thingies. bt i must say u gav me a really tought time cuz u ver so fuckin fat. i had 2 clean so much of ur fat bodies , it was exhaustin. looks like someone has been living the good life ha. n im sorry i dissected u 4m the wrong side n i ended up rippin ur nerve cord. n sorry 4 de- gutting so visciously. i dint mean too pull them off, it was supposd 2 stay der. n dont thnk u ver all innocent, u smelt like shit (i hav a suspicious feelin ’ uv been ther n done dat’.....yucky)
bt i must say i was more sucessful wit u den Mr. Earthworm i dessected last year. i was supposed 2 mount his intestines n i ripped his stomach open , n dat was not a pretty sight! neway tc , hope ur fine in animal heaven or whatever.

im so tired of being tired all the time. since the past 3 days i have a catch in my neck n its not goin away. i visited the doc twice to no effect. its even worse now. i thnk it started on the day i managed 2 sleep for 8 hrs! i guess my body is not used 2 sleepin 4 such a luxury ne more. n i hav 2 carry such heavy books too. its not fair, life sucks!

im bustin my ass off, studyn, doin this. it really difficult tho n quite expensive. i hope i can do it. its difficult 2 remember evrythin, n i barely hav a social life.