Fall in love

i was sitting on the last bench today. after i placed my bag, i just went out of the room to get a signal on my cell.
i entered in and he was standing right in front of me.
he was moving towards the last bench. he saw me coming behind too. he looked at the bag kept there n he pointed at me, asking me if i was sitting there. i said yes!
i actually crossed my fingers hoping he wont sit somewhere else.
he moved aside and let me go n sit inside and then sat next to me!!!!
i was grinning ear to ear. my frnd (sitting beside me) asked me to stop making it obvious. today i dont know wat had gotten into him. we spoke so much!
the whole lecture he was talking and was attentive and laughing so heartily at my jokes. he was so sweet !
it was so good!
my proff is taing us on a trip tmrw to a resort
(with a pool !!)
and there is gonna be a party too cuz i heard a dj is coming too.
hope we get to know each other better, but i thnk he will be busy with his friends and me with mine.

i have not texted him for more than 4 days!
he’s not texting me either.
guess we are both too busy.
i miss him. i saw him in class yesterday, it was the worst ever.
he just avoided all eye contact, not even a smile, he just gave me this stare when i entered.
i thnk if it could speak, it would say ‘ohh you! was not expecting you’
fuck him! if he doesnt wanna speak i dont care. i thnk he is fake then.

well we are definetly moving ahead.
now we have strtd telling each other our secrets and stuff. really personal things about life and being lonely.
he spoke to me after class today. smiled and spoke to me in front of some othr guys. not alot but still. i guess he doesnt want anyone to know that we speak cuz then the rumous start u see. its all good though. all good!

ok im confused again. he is crazy. the day when i was supposed to give him my poems. he came into class. he sat next to me cuz there was no other place left.
i thought we would talk alot. he hardly said a word to me, not even a ‘hie’.
so mean!
the only conversation we had was forced by me. he just replied to what i asked him. nothing from his side. so wierd!

later after class , i waited for him. i gave him the book. he thanked me for it. and in the 5 minutes we spent together, we spoke more than we did in the 2 hour lecture.
the thng is that no one was aroung n we werw talking a little away from class. he was amiling and asking me stuff.

i told my friend about it. she said maybe he really likes me and doesnt want anyone in class to know. cuz guys make fun n talk about girls. i dont know?
he is killing me !

u wont belive it! i just sat down to write this and he sent me a msg.
ahhhh! if i could jsut tell u m how he makes me feel. i mean i have this big stupid grin on my face while i am writing this.
last night i was just thnking about him. so i decided to txt him. i wanted to know if he likes mne, so i did somethng lame. i made up this stupid senseless quiz, and i sent it to him.
the first 4 questions were just the warm up. it was the last question i was intersted in-
would u be romantically interested in me ?
talk about the level i can go to!

so i sent it to him , he replied to all of them and for the last one he said ‘keep guessing’
i was like hmmm! not good enough.
i had barely even read the msg when he sent me the same msg back. i replied to all honestly. i said ‘yes’ for the last quest.
‘im not interested in anyone right now. because later i find out that all chicks are fake. i hope ur not one of them!!!!’
what do u thnk its means ?

he did not reply for a long time. i was a little worried so i just sent hima msg regarding somethng else. he replied to my msg n then wrote right at the bottomOct 22, 11:09AM PDT | Parent | Edit | Delete | Respond to this

he is so wierd. i love that.
last night i asked him if he was goin for this religious dance thing called navratri (for details on this festival plz read my entry for STAY OUT THE WHOLE NIGHT)
i asked him , if he was gonna wear the traditional dress (plz look at the picture) and he got real excited about it. he was like there is no way in hell that u could catch him in such clothes….............lol.
i mean i can just imagine what trauma he would go through if u made him dress like this. i have never even see him wear a shirt. hes always dressed in his ‘Slayer tshirt’ and shorts/ bermudas…............. laid- back look.
he then procceded to tell me that he goes to church sometimes! but he wants to go seaching for a satan worship church ! cuz that would be cool.
hes a saggitarius. i have only heard uptil now that ppl who are sagg’s are insane. now i am sure…................lol

but i still thnk he is adorable. strange but adorable.

i went to class today and he was there. he came in and did not even say ‘hi’…...............(heartbroken)
there was an empty seat next to me, i could see him hesitate whether or not to sit next to me. he did not !
after class everyone was rushing at the exit. i got squashed against him, God my heart startd beating so so fast. he is kind of tall n broad so he was pushing me. i pushed him back and v strtd pushing each other and it was electric. im warped! he was enjoying it too. i want him. im gonna have him.

I LOVE HIM , I LOVE HIM ! or do i have a crush ?
i dont know but i cant stop thinking about him.
i thnk i am addicted to him. i dont know if he likes me, ppl say he does….............God i hope he does !
he really strange though, he is a metal head who plays in a band and who loves maple trees and star gazing ! he likes songs about blood and spilling guts and horrid zombie flicks but he refuses to tell me the names of the ‘pretty grlz’ he likes cuz its personal !!!!
he respects women too. WOW ! can i ask for more?
God i hope he likes me, make him like me….............plz.

i am gonna get a huge bill this month. both of us have gone insane texting each other. yesterday we were texting each other till 5 in the morning, and he had his term paper at 2 p.m ?

i kept him awake the previous nite too till 3 jsut talking shit!

so i like someone new now. its so fresh and fun doing this all over again. i gave up on the previous guy cuz i found out he doesnt just pretend to be a dick head, he really is one.
i had a huge fight with him, so not gonna pursue him anymore.
so i just turned my attension elsewhere and im having fun.
hes not really a looker but he is super sweet. hes soft spoken on occasion and very funny with friends too.
but the really great thing about him is that he is plays in a band. he plays bass and is the lead singer ! wow!
and he is really intelligent too, electronics student….............hmmm! i hope it works out.

bad news. my really good friend broke up with her boyfriend. i am quite schockes because they seemed truly in love, i thnk they still are. the thng is thta my friend is a muslim while her bf is a hindu….....oh oh! i know, i thought they could get pass that, but they couldnt.
she has taken it pretty badly, she is sucha mess. she came on late tday to class too. i mean i know exactly wat she is going through. i have had my heart brokrn and it suck …..............big time!
ahhh! love is so difficult.