overcome my shyness

to put my hand up in class more often… because it does get slightly easier every time i do it..

a friend in class said today. haha i was just in a talkative mood… when im in a talkative mood then i talk when i’m not i dont… it was probably the most he’s ever seen me smile too.. and the most he’s ever heard me laugh… it feels really good to just be comfortable with my surroundings and the people im with and just say whatever the hell i want sometimes!!

walked home with the girl i sit next to in english, talked heaps to her, you see she’s one of those completely outgoing, confident, say whatever she likes (but in a good way) kind of people, so she’s an easy person to talk to… she’s really talkative and im really untalkative but i like that i can be quite talkative with her if that make ANY sense

a word that’s plagued me my whole life… whether i’ll ever truely overcome this i dont know… it’s too hard to even write about…

today i wasn’t shy…
which is a pretty big thing for me, usually if i think back on the day i’ll be thinking something like “gosh i wish i wasn’t so shy…” but today i’m not thinking that! because today i wasnt shy… omg i actually went one day without being shy, which means i can go 2 days without being shy and so on and so on… this goal is suddenly looking a lot more achievable

i actually talked to people i would never usually talk to. i didnt even think bout it, it just happened. and i wasnt uncomfortable about it or anything either.

i think i’m actually making progress on this goal :D

but the big test comes in about 10 weeks when i have to give an oral presentation for english class…. :( not looking forward to this… i’ve never done a speech before because i’ve just been too scared… but i do have 10 weeks to psyche myself up for it so hopefully this year i’ll be able to do it..

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