sort out my life

Well, the first year of uni is over, not sure whether I’ve passed yet and I’m sorta doubting I have.. But anyway. I’m not really sure what to do…
There are a few options. If I don’t pass then I’m going to change to maths with computing, if I do pass then I’m not sure whether to change or to stick with computer science… But I’m really not enjoying this course too much, and starting a new course will give me a chance to start all over again… And if I wanted to I could also go to Germany for a year to study, but I’m not sure yet!! But other than that, things are a bit more ok now… Even if they did just kinda work themselves out with no help from me!

I’m not so sure whether it was actually the right thing to do really… I think it was just that the 5 months beforehand were a mistake. I don’t really know :-( But anyway, not doing too well with this goal!

Over the past two days I did something which I thought I’d never do. I’m glad that I’ve done it but it’s still quite sad anyway. It should make things easier from now on though.. I think? It was definitely the right decision anyway.

I have so many decisions to make right now, all of which are important. I don’t know what to dooo. I know what I should do for the most part I guess, it’s just really hard to do it =( I don’t like hurting people’s feelings either so that doesn’t make things any easier. I hate it!

1. Go out less
2. Drink less
3. Take up some hobbies
4. Go to bed early so I get up early and then go to uni!
5. Eat less

I can’t really write about this online as it may mess everything up even more. The thing with this goal is that I know what I should do.. Mostly anyway, I just can’t bring myself to do it.