get married

Not moving to the direction i expected, so need to explore new guys now.

Only now i knew I really love this guy. There is not a single doubt in my mind about this.. I always have doubts but not this time….

I have this urge to ensure this this relationship works. I did a lot of reading on manifesting reality. Its like I dwell myself in it. It looks so near, I can smell the ceremony.

I tried to refocus to something else but its like I need to do this first and the amount of energy needed to manifest the reality so that we could be together is a lot. Imagine if I use it for other purpose, it should bring more. But hey, I am the competitive spirit, dont let go till you win. Have to find out how to juggle the energy.

This is the picture i saw in his messenger…

We spent a night 10th Nov. I can see a better level of comfortness especially from him. He has very clear mind and he really wants to spend the time with me. He listen, empathy, dont want to loose a hug. Really feel he loved me. We were in the ZONE.

This is the happiest moment being with him.

He had an unsettled previous relationship. Applying “how to close a deal” concept, I will go for a trial close.
1. He got a job in Penang, but he decline. Tell him that he is not serious about making “that” relationship work. That girl want to stay in Penang. Tell him he is just playing along, nothing more.Plus each time he wanted to see her he got sick.
2. Build his dream. Ask what is the kind of life he wants. Where he wants to live. What he wants to do. Who are the people he wants to be with ( I already know but for him to realise)
3. Talk about his fear
4. Fit in myself in the picture. Tell him my plan to do forex, that I could do the work anywhere in the world so long as I have internet connection.
5. Neutralise his fear. Biggest fear is losing his asset to the girl. So I need to find ways to get enough money to rebuild the assets. More reasons for me to work harder and get everything this year

So many people getting married! Anyway, my man is getting closer o me, emotional closeness… but i think its still a long way.. But hey, stay positive!!

My man had already given up all other girls. 1 unexpected day he suddenly called me and tell me that he had deleted the phone numbers of all the other girls except for me.

He was sick last 2 weeks, for a whole week but he still pick up my call and listen to me. He becomes more intimate. More loving. More attentive.

Only one more hurdle… I call it the final frontier… that 1 woman…

I hope that she found another man that makes her happy..

read an article. in my situation now i should do the lobbying and convincing. not run away n go out with other guys. i should be his best friend… i am comfortable with this plan now. At least I know i am putting the effort

its not a good time to give another try. Because he is not up to it. He needs to feel these feelings to draw him back to me.
1. Missing me, that means spending less time with me, less calls, less communication. There are reason why he tried to get me for 1 year. There must be something about me that he cannot resist. Capitalise on that. He flirted with so many girls but he will always come back to me to discuss bout important things in his life.
2. Appear happy without him around – now that he said we are only friends, mix around with other guys. take this opportunity to mix with other guys. go out as much as i can. enjoy life. let him feel miserable with the lady and let him come back to me. When he does, he will feel happy again. If he doesnt come back at least I am enjoying my life in his absence. Win win situation for me.
3. Let him feel he had lost me for a while – let him feel that if he doesnt act now, he will loose me for the rest of his life. That means hang a lot but appear unavailable. Appear busy with another guy.
4. Only accepts formal invitation & appear attractive – dont go for the dates anymore, only accepts work based invitation. Mix around with everyone. Let him start the ball rolling again.

Will review next 6 mths this plan. Best thing to happen he will come back to me.

Worst thing to happen – he will be gone

Most important goal – find potential new guys for the next boyfriend just in case if i lost him

he is not ready. He wants to give it another try with that lady. Maybe i appear too available. today i feel i want to spend time with other guys. thinking about spending time with other guys. When i think bout it i feel happy… new goal now… get a new boyfriend!