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this just happened.

There is no animosity. She hasn’t moved out yet, but at last she is packing to go.

It’s not weird for me anymore.

And even though it sounds patronising as all hell, I genuinely wish her and her new boyfriend every happiness.

This is done.

So.

A mutual friend of mine and my ex has just told me that it would be a real shame if I walked away from this relationship and it wasn’t actually over.

I see. I didn’t know I instigated this, but that’s told me, clearly.

Apparently this needs to be discussed because I am far too calm about the situation.

Too calm? I’m bursting into tears at the last line of Porco Rosso for crying out loud.

Just because I’m willing to accept her decision to leave the relationship doesn’t mean I’m walking away. I’m pretty sure she is the one doing that, and indeed, it is the third time she has done it.

I don’t like it, I’m certainly not happy about it, but it wasn’t offered to me as a negotiation.

I can either deal with it or leave my life on hold and wait.

And she can’t promise me anything. Well who the hell can? You either take a leap of faith or you go lonely.

No amount of counselling is going to change the fact that it isn’t working for her. For her to stay there and live a lie doesn’t work for me.

I leapt, I flew for a moment, I crash landed in a heap. I’m getting up and moving on.

But at least it is editing practice.

I documented an annual conference for a national organisation. on a boat.

If you are ever working on water, make sure you a tripod for each camera, not just the heavy one.