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Well I’ve been doing okay. I want too a lot more now. I’m pushing my friends away again… I hate doing that but they have their own lives… I miss hanging out with them though. Oh well, I haven’t cut since around mid-December, so I’m doing good.
I’m not sure what else…

Well I had a slip up about four weeks ago???.... great… I was going on my fifth month? Yeah fifth. But I got pissed at my parents, brother, my two best friends ditched me, so I was felling alone and cut six times on my shoulder before I realized what I had done. So starting from scratch again… Ive tossed myself in enough extra curriculars to make one insane but I need to keep busy. And I told myself I would stop before I turned 18… didn’t make that goal; sucks. I’m on week four clean now.

Well I told my best friend’s mom, and she didn’t seem to shocked… then again she’s bi… so now it’s two down… a million and one to go. But that’s better than all of them to tell. She told me to hold up on telling her daughter because Damie isn’t ready to hear it yet; I guess Damie’s real sister came out as a lesbian last month and she’s still in shock, and even if I say I’m bi she might freak out more, so I’m going to wait. I think I might tell my friend Zeke, he thinks I am, so I might as well confirm it. Lol. Maybe as I tell more of my friends it will be easier to come out to my parents and grandparents.