Notasyetaflyer

Apparently, my first try was in fact a success. I was told that I couldn’t do it, but then out of eagerness to challenge myself, try something new with my hair, and prove a certain person wrong…i did it. took me about, let’s say about 12 hours. I’ve been getting compliments, so it must look good. I wasn’t planning on keeping it for longer than two weeks, but I might just do so now. Supposedly it makes me look more mature. I didn’t want the twists so big, I actually wanted them longer and for my hair to look more full. Supposedly, this actually looks like its my own hair. ?? je ne sais pas. I cut off a few split ends while I was braiding. I found ALOT when i had washed my hair. Apparently, I’m in dire need of a trim. I used Janet, Afro Kinky Bulk…exactly 2.5 packs. (actually wasnt sure I’d even use 2 packs, cuz when i was halfway through I had only used a half of a pack). The hardest part I found about it, was trying to figure out the amount of hair to use on each braid, and the amount of my own hair to part for each braid to get a specific size twist. Even after all I did, I’m still not sure how I did it. thats why if you look real close, you’ll notice I have different sized twists in my hair.

Goal: Saturday, October 31st..129.2

I’m so very frustrated with the cheerleading team. Their high expectations and demanding circumstances is driving me crazy. 2 absences left they tell me. Well, you know wut? I’m okay with that! Fuck yeah…I’m glad I didn’t go tonight. Even if I had done nothing all night..I’m glad I didn’t spend 5 and half hours in school, after having 4 classes, and 1 midterm. I want to get the fuck home, get some food, chillax, and catch up on some oh-so necessary studying. Life is hard for a pimp. I mean there was also another factor influencing my decision (Alias: Kisha). So much money, so much time, how am I suppose to have time for anything else? Is cheerleading suppose to become my life, b/c thats not what I signed up for. Part of my life, maybe like 1/4th, but not 1/2 or even 1/3rd. I need Kellie time. I do love cheering, but I am considering the Q word. I can’t afford the continue to pay for all these things, I dont have a job, and my parents aren’t exactly loaded. Dinners, Bakesales, and parties all in one week (not included the wopping expense of the uniform and summer gym fees), Cheerleading is taking me out of house and home. Oh, and I can just imagine my schedule once games and monday cheer practices come along. I need a job to be a cheerleader, but if I get a job, I won’t have time to be a cheerleader with all that is required. I am highly upset about being threatened, and having an absence for not showing up for a dinner…I bought my shit didn’t I? Guess that doesn’t matter. Confused, lost, angry…this is college, not real life, I want to experience things outside of cheerleading. Decisions…decisions…decisions…