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I was looking something on internet the other day and found about this article which is kind of similar to my case. Everyone must have heard people talking in sleep it’s a disorder so called somniloquy. This disorder in most people is short term, but not in the case of other people. Sleep-talkers are not typically aware of their behavior or their speech. It might occur through stress, depression, sleep deprivation, day-time drowsiness, alcohol and fever. It sounds really weird when we think about the people who talk in their sleep without even knowing anything, but this is what I am suffering from. It’s been really a long time I been going through this things. When I was a kid everyone use to tell me that is just because of some things that happened during day time which affected my brain so much that I cannot stop thinking about even when I am sleeping. Some doctors say that this disorder runs in families but it is not always true in my family no one have such kind of disorder. It feels really embarrassing when someone tells you about this entire weird thing you were talking about last night which you might never want to tell anyone.
It might only be the thing which had happened to you during day time. What freaks me out the most is that sometimes I dream something which is going to happen in future. It might be pretty much obvious that we can remember the thing which had happen to us or in other words which is our past but what about dreams of future don’t you think it’s freaky?? Sometime I feel like these things had happen to me in past somewhere. It is just a weird feeling. I tried to discuss about this things when I was about 16 with my doctor, he just ignored me like I am talking about some crap which he never heard about or either he don’t want to discuss about that. It is just a unwanted feeling when I think about all this abnormal things taking place in life.

Life always play games with our emotions and our relation with other people. Right now I am put into a situation where I just dont know what I have to do and what I should. Its like if I am not going to make right decision it gone affect many peoples life. Its like I love this guy and I dont know if he loves me or not. He says that he do but from his behaviour and everythign it sounds so different. He is kind a really busy with his job and his studies and so he is not able to get time for me thats the reason he gave me.But it feels really different. I mean if he loves me he should atleast get some time to hangout with me and atleast call me and talk to me once a week or day. We usually chat at night for about sometime. I really love him and would love to be with him for rest of my life but its like I dont find him exact way i expect him to be when we just knew each other as friend. Then all of a sudden another guy comes in my life. He is really a good guy. We just talk on phone and chat. We have never seen each other face to face… but he is a nice guy.. i like talking to him on phone. he is kind a really a good friend of mine.. to whom i can tell anything… but i dont know why he is acting so different… he is now like he loves me andhe cannot live without me… he is really nice.. i dont know if he is so sure about his words or not, i mean he might be right be he might not.. he might be just talking to me to make me happy.. but why would anyone say that when he knew that we cannot stay together right now.. i mean if it would be only for time pass then he wont.. but i am kind a confused about that… I dont know wht new changes gone come in my life.. and i still wonder why do everyone just dont keep friendship and just jump to the situation where they wanna be my life partner… why??

It always hurt when people come in our life for no reason and then be with us for a longer time and just dont understand how to follow the realtion really well… I met this guy on one of the site on internet… we share lots of thigns about each other.. and after few months.. we thought to talk to each other as we are getting close to each other.. we share each others phone # and whenever we are free we use to talk to each other.. But mostly he is busy.. he is doing he Masters in pharmacy.. he work on campus.. for instructor.. he teach labs.. so i know he might be always busy.. but then when i see him online.. and passing comments to other people.. I wonder if he made a realtion with me.. dont he just get couple of min. to talk to me? He never call me… and whenver i call him he is either busy with lab reports.. or in class.. he is really a nice guy.. I dont want to just keep a realtion and dont know what is the importance of the realtion.. and even he is from my nationality.. so I am lil bit more attracted towards him.
I tried to get some time out of my busy schedual or his busy schedual so that we can see each other face to face.. but we never got such good time that we can meet each other.. He stay about 45 min drive away from my place.. but then also we never got time for each other.. and that is what I feel bad about.. I want to meet him.. want to spend sometime with him.. but whenever I try to do that there will be somethign which always hurt me.. I really get mad when I feel that he dont have time for me… I dont know wht to do..but I like him…