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only in my dreams could i fly and without flapping my arms like an idiot.

a bee stung me and i felt by killing the little bastard, me being stung was avenged by his wrongdoing.

I play guitar more than i watch tv. of course, i dont have any channels to watch on tv. but still, i love playing my guitar. my favorite song right now to play is “true love waits” by radiohead. but i like tearing apart any song and reasemble the combination of sound. think of reverse engineering for music. have a good day to all people who read this. bye.

when i was in love it was worth it, just not the memories anymore. i used to sing to her when we were going to bed or in the car. she said it eased her. good luck to you all. try it, just let go and sing to the one you love.

i love cookie dough, only when it is raw. i ate a 5 lb. bucket of raw cookie dough and it took me a week to eat all of it. i had it for breakfast,lunch and dinner. very good.

I found someone, again, she is married. I enjoyed talking to her from 2:30 to 6:30 in the morning. Finding the few and far between makes us all feel less lonely. makes me happy to be alive and to have met such a wonderful person. my feelings are platonic. think of it as being “soulmates”. I’m willing to talk to anyone.

it isn’t bad. of course its lonely, i love having company. it’s rare that people visit me, but i try to enjoy what time they have left before they leave. i can do whatever i want, whenever i want, all the time. think of it as being single….forever and at all times. i can stay awake for as long i want, i can walk around naked and not have any kind of pressure that someone will walk in. it’s nice.

cant help it. i keep thinking the next girl i run into is gonna try to change me. or nag too much or complain or get very violent.

feels good to get the rush and excitement of people shooting at you. or using stealth as your tactic for taking them out, without taking them out. lots of fun.

good so far. still reading it.

had a love, tried to change me, wasn’t good enough, now i’m here. end of story.

found her. she’s married, has a family. but shes great at who she really is.