37nfalling

these are still not finished.

Wanting to take care of all loose ends, I will really feel sooooooo much better when there is less clutter here there and everywhere. I am taking care of it slowly. Funny how these scarves were once a symbol of one more thing I am doing for my girls, a final gift of creation for them and now they have turned into clutter. I guess life is changing. I don;t feel any differently towards my girls I guess I am just realizing that the empty nest is something that I will need to learn to live with. Focusing all my attention on the girls will only add to my loneliness. It really is time to focus on me and my future, at least for a little while.

will this be three or four, no maybe 5 years since I started them damn scarves. I gotta finish them this year. I have been making stuff for my girls all through thier lifetime, if not sewing or knitting then in some other way. I need to keep the tradition somehow, this was the only way I could do it and know they may still wear what I make. LOL

This is taking care of me! I have stopped drinking so much and I am not going against my personal integrity about values that don;t mesh with mine. I am not feeling invalidated any more either. This is probably, no this is the best move I have ever made. Go me!