these are still not finished.
Wanting to take care of all loose ends, I will really feel sooooooo much better when there is less clutter here there and everywhere. I am taking care of it slowly. Funny how these scarves were once a symbol of one more thing I am doing for my girls, a final gift of creation for them and now they have turned into clutter. I guess life is changing. I don;t feel any differently towards my girls I guess I am just realizing that the empty nest is something that I will need to learn to live with. Focusing all my attention on the girls will only add to my loneliness. It really is time to focus on me and my future, at least for a little while.
will this be three or four, no maybe 5 years since I started them damn scarves. I gotta finish them this year. I have been making stuff for my girls all through thier lifetime, if not sewing or knitting then in some other way. I need to keep the tradition somehow, this was the only way I could do it and know they may still wear what I make. LOL
This is taking care of me! I have stopped drinking so much and I am not going against my personal integrity about values that don;t mesh with mine. I am not feeling invalidated any more either. This is
probably, no this is the best move I have ever made. Go me!
there has been no time for pleasure fiction book reading. Not that I am complaining, school is far more important. I am loving this class and learning so much. I will get back to the school in the fall. I don;t see any classes that I aam ready to take in the spring and I will then have more than enough opportunity to read for fun. I will instead join the toastmasters club.
So I am still reading The Talisman, and my textbook, Looking Out Looking In about interpersonal and small group communication. Great book and tons to learn.
another Stephen King book but I remember loving this book the first time I read it and I want to read Black House so I only thought it best to re-read this one. I remember how much I enjoyed it the first time. sigh
I haven;t had a lot of time to read lately, it seems like there are a bunch of things going on all the time. But I will make the time for fun. I need to try adn get my school textbook reading done in the end of the week before I head back to wrok so I can just enjoy leisure reading when I am working.
great book with a great message. It is all about our choice. They can take everything from you but in the end it is our choice as to which attitude we are going to take about our circumstances.
would include not drinking so much, keeping promises I made to myself and doing what is best for me. Lately it seems that I have been more worried than anything else. Not about anything in particular but I have been down and insecure and whiny. I don’t like me like this. I know it has a lot to do with not taking better care of me. I need to return my focus to where it belongs, here and now, with me. I need to ask myself the question again. “What makes me happy?” and do it.
the last book of the series! It was amazing, except for the spider baby, I really enjoyed the book and even the ending.
I am ahead of myself. I started a shrt book to bide the time before I start another King book. I should be able to finish it today or tomorrow, Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. Interesting.
the sixth book in the Dark Tower series by Stephen King was finished on my birthday. I just started the last book of this series, The Dark Tower.
I am excited, happy to come to an end and anxious to move on to something a little different. I am also a little sad that the characters that I have come to know will no longer be a part of my life.(?) Does that make sense?
the fifth book of the Dark Tower series from Stephen King. It was a great book. I am so pumped up to be this far into a series that I started so long ago. I am on the verge of completing it. I have started the sixth book and there is only one more left after this one. I have an idea of what may be found at the Dark Tower, I am anxious to see the end. (But endings can be so sad, what will take its place? But then it will just go hand in hand with my life. My life as a caregiver to my children is coming to an end. Perhaps learning to deal with smaller endings will make me stronger to deal with bigger endings.) What is the saying? For every ending is just another beginnings end, so we move to a new beginning which will surely have an end as well.
means protecting myself as well. It seems that somebody at work has seen my profile. I didn’t think that it would bother me until she made a couple of statements to me that referenced something I said here on 43things. I realize that I share a lot of my personal life with all of you here on 43things and I do have a couple of people that know about my profile, in fact I invited them in, but this girl was not one of them. It is my own fault for allowing my profile to be visible here on my work screen as people walk by. So what can I do now? I don’t trust this woman and would rather not give her any more information. So perhaps it is best if I stop writing for a while.
Thank you all for the support and friendship over the last year and a half. I will keep up with you.
It was difficult to get up and be at the glass shop by 9:00 am on Friday. I am not a morning person and I drank way too much wine the night before but I made it. I walked home, got a blister on my foot from my sandals to boot. It was ready by 12:30 and I was walking back to the garage. (running shoes this time) The damage $169.
Off to the garage/inspection station. They changed the muffler. I must admit it was making a lot of noise. I am sure he overcharged me and I hate a man who won’t look you in the eye when he is telling you the price for something. But he was willing to give me the inspection sticker after this work so I went with it. So $316 later, I have the inspection sticker and that is really all that matters.
Off to the police station. The looked at the inpsection sticker, they took my warning and said they would take care of it. Now the car is good for the year. I am relieved.
looked inside for 2006 files that I thought I needed to go through and alas, I had already done them so there was nothing to go through! Yah!
I brought my box of shredding down to the worksite and did my part for earth day and recycling and all that. That damn box has been sitting in my livingroom for over 5 months so I am really happy to see it gone.
to the point of depression! Really! I sat here this morning hemming and hawwing about getting the windsheild replaced. What happens if there is a bunch of other stuff wrong wtih the car? I cna;t afford this with the lawyers bill coing due at the end fo next month and ust gettng caught up on the bills. I got to the glass place and I was late, I hate being late but I was on the fence about the whole thing to begin with. It ended up that they had a person call out and because I was late they were unable to replace the windsheild. Okay. I took that as some sign.
Later I had an appointment at the garage to have the inspection done and told the guy about the windsheild but wold he still look at it and see if there was anything else that the car needed. I have a lot of rust on the wheel well as most older Hondas do and I was worried that I would have to spend a day with the Bondo before it would pass. He came out to tell me that it looks like I have a problem with my muffler, which I suspected given the noise it was making. $300 he said. Okay, not happy about that but I will manage. I have an appointment for that right after the windsheild.
I was pulled over twice in one week about my inpsection sticker being overdue and I only have until tomorrow to have it inspected and brought to the police station for verification so that warning doesn’t turn into a fine. Looks like I will make it.
I grew up poor and it is not fun. Even when I was first married and we rolled pennies to buy milk it was still not romantic. It came to pass that I enjoyed a much better lifestyle when I married my second husband. It was nice to not have to worry how I was going to pay for car repairs. But since I have left him and things are sometimes hard on my one income I have a great sense of accomplishment as I manage these irritating expensive issues. I am making it through and that feels good in the end.
The goals that I feel need to be completed to make this a pivotal year are
being at my appropriate healthy weight
accomplishing 15 goals on the clean sweep
being caught up on my bills
finding a therapist and working on some issues to make my life better going back to school, if only for one class
finishing the scarves
meeting my brother passing my motorcycle license course
What a great book, over 700 pages made it a long read but I absolutely loved the story. It was almost a love story. I like how this series is so diverse. It is set in the future but in a world that has moved on yet they are talking about gunslingers and riding horseback. There are connections to the now, and the past and other books. It is really a fantastic series. I started the fifth book tonight, The Wolves of Cala.
The story goes on!
I was at the oral surgeons office the other day for my daughter, $2000 to have three wisdom teeth pulled out, my share was $600. I thought about seeing a different dentist. I mentioned it to my daughter that the two receptionists, one nurse ti take us to the room, one to pull up the files, one to return to the other one wwho told us how much it was going to cost was what we were really paying for. We were also paying for the new building, new carpeting, new furniture and beautiful setting and its views out the window.
Well, seventeen year olds don’t take that into consideration and certainly didn’t believe a word of what I was saying. Oh well.
What does this have to do with finding a lawyer? Well, I certainly didn’t want to pay for those things with a lawyer as well. I don’t have “lawyer insurance” to help out with the bill like I have dental insurance. So I looked at finding a lawyer that I would be paying for his services and that is all. The sherrif who served me with those papers last week suggested a couple of names. I called one and left a message asking for an appointment in the morning, any of the following three days and if they could leave that information on my answering maching please because I work nights and sleep during the day, thank you. They left me a message to call them, nothing more, no explanation that they are out certain mornings or anything.
Apparently they didn;t listen to my message very well.
So let’s try another. I called the other name the sherrif recommended and got a real live person on the end of the line who made me an appointment for a few days later. I had to drive to another town to see the guy but I was in a hurry to get this thing resolved. I arrived at the office on time and went in. His office was in an old brick building on main street. When you open the door you immediately had to walk upstairs, there wasn’t a receptionist or fancy furniture, just a few couches and paperwork on the table. The only person in the office was the lawyer himself and he was on the phone. He came and asked me a question or two and told me he would be back in a minute so plase just fill out this paperwork. Ten minutes later I was in his office. We got down to business talked the talk and settled on a price for the whole thing. I don’t feel like I am paying for an elaborate office and staff and I feel somewhat confident that he can handle my situation.
I hope I was right in my choice.
a mid line pair for light hiking with a nice wide toe box and a great tread, with medium torque, not too high or too stiff stiff. I like the way they look and the way they feel on my feet. I would like to buy some nice thin wool socks as well. I am really happy about my purchase. I saw a nice jacket there at the same time, it was on clearance but it was almost as expensive as the boots. EMS, not the cheapest place to equipment.
I am really happy about this purchase. I need to update my long trail guide and plan a few short hikes to break my feet into the boots.
at EMS there was a sign up event where you get 10% off of your purchase by signing up for a membership. I signed up and have already got a call about some volunteer events. I guess time will tell if it was really worth it or not.
with a lawyer this morning. I said that I needed an appoiontment, preferably in the morning. I asked that they leave me a message was to when my appointment will be as I work night shift and sleep during the day. I woke up at 5:00 after going to bed at 10:30 and found a message, Not with an appointment time but with a message to call them back. I don’t get it, what did they not understand? I guess I will be calling them and a few others tomorrow.