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Now that I’m 18 I really want to get that nose job. I think I must have been about 13 when I first becamse concious of my nose. My nose is generally attractive, it’s small and thin but it has this horrible bump on it. The bridge is too…bumpy. It kinda makes me look stupid, gives me a bit of a droopy, downcast look.

All those years of discontent has given me time to save my money and now I know I have enough money. I’ve been thinking about doing it at the end of the year before christmas time cause I’ll be at home doing nothing anyway.

I really don’t know what steps I should take to put this plan into action.

Unfortunately I think I may have fallen in love. I would think that falling in love would be a good thing but this guy that I’ve had feelings for quite some time is a real jerk. I’ve been told he likes me but he acts so arrogant and immature I could never tell him I have any feelings for him and besides he’s probably just feeling lust. It makes me wonder if it’s right to ignore all your feelings and give him the cold shoulder if he’s bad news and will probably only hurt you. Who knows, maybe there is a nicer guy out there for me. Love can hurt sometimes.

Well, I’ve always been very flexible, for example my arms bend backwards at the elbow and so does my dad’s and I can touch my thumbs to my wrist both sideways and backwards. I was lucky it only took me one day to learn to bend my back and put my foot on my head back. I learnt that a few years ago when I saw it on tv and thought it looked amazing. I’ve never learnt to do the splits as my leg flexibilty isn’t that great and I’m having quite a bit of trouble with that. But my back flexibilty is going well, I’ve been doing a bit of stretching on all the muscles for about a week now and my feet are starting to get past my head. My leg flexibilty has improved but I needs a lot more work. For some reason, I don’t know why I just love bending in strange ways.

Well, I can play the acoustic guitar not great, but average. I’ve been playing for a bit over half a year. I practise about an hour plus every day, when I first started I was a bit slack but now I’ve really become motivated to not just be able to play average but to play very well.

Well, I have managed to avoid eating all animal products since I made the switch. I hope I can keep it up.

I find it funny how when I told people I gave up meat a few months back they where all like “aww, thats so bad” and “just try to forget about what’s in it and enjoy the meaty goodness”. I haven’t actually come across anyone who is supportive of me. I can easily get the iron I need from iron suplements. anyway, I stuffed up once or twice since then and ate meat, but was happy to find I felt guilty and it didn’t seem to taste as nice as before.

My gradma is very much into eating meat. When I was at her place I had to grind up meat in a grinder so she could make meatloaf. It was gross.

Well, I think it’s time to go completely vegan. I hope I can do it. I’m making the switch today.

I got my tongue pierced. I’m happy with it and there are no regrets. It’s a fun thing to have.

I supose I’m undecided on this. I was drunk at the time, I don’t regret it but i didn’t feel all that comfortable without cloths on. At least I’ve done it, I’ll do it again another time and see if it’s any better. Mabey when I’m more cofident.

I’ve been thinking about the topic today because I was asked out today. I said no. What was I supose to say, I’m not attracted to the guy, I don’t like the guy and now he’s been hurt by me. I feel guilty but it’s just not something i can do.

Well I volunteered some of my time last Christmas, a month ago and some food and free bags my dag had floating around from a conference. So, that was fun. The work I did wasn’t as hard as the time before in the kitchen and I got to chat to the other volunteers as I sorted food into crates. Everyone was so nice and all the people we helped were friendly. Would do it again.

Well, I’ve downloaded all the episodes and they where great but i didn’t really like the ending. I actually finished watching the series a month or two ago but i didn’t get on to crossing it off my list till now.

I don’t really know about how I’ll do this or even why I really want to walk on my hands but I hope just practising heaps will work , like standing on my hands against a wall and just practising.

Well, I had my upper ear pierced today. I’m not sure of the proper name for the place. I had been hoping to find a place that pierced with a needle not a gun because I looked into it alot, infomation about the guns and searching for places but in the end I just went with what I could find. besides, I have gone there before and it comes with good after instructions and spray. Anyway…One day I might get my belly button pierced.

I actually had a party! It was pretty good.

I’ve been thinking about this quite a bit. I have had my ears pierced twice on both sides at the bottom and once at the top. Anyway, earlier this year I had a sudden impulse one Sunday to get my ears pierced a second time at the bottom and the next day I did it. While I was at the piercers I saw a diagram that showed an upper ear piercing so by Wednesday I had got that done. I managed to hide my piercings from my parents for over a month and when my mum found out she tried to make me take them out and was upset, by now she accepts the bottom ones. So I still have the bottoms ones but because I went to a strict, private school at the time they made me take out the upper ear one (though it was about a term later).

I’ve been really wanting to get something done and I’m unsure on whether or not I should.

Well, I’m not sure if this is counted, but my first kiss was with a guy who I met at a party. I danced with him before the kiss but I never caught his name and still have no idea who he was. He tried to tell me but the music was too loud. So, he’s not a complete stranger but I have no idea who he was. I think it would be fun to kiss a complete stranger unsuspecting. Sounds like a way to get a natural high!

I’m having a 17th Birthday party soon-ish and I’m slightly anxious about it. I don’t go to my old school anymore where all my friends are and so they are inviting all the people. They tell me everyone they invite and I’m fine with it. But I guess it’s just the fact I’m not doing it myself. Well, I really hope eveything works out and it should also tie up my other goals of buying a bikini and hopefully looking good in it. It’s a pool party/movie day.

Well, It’s been 3 days since the person I’m getting my Inuyasha off uploaded anything onto youtube which is strange since he normally uploads 1 or more episodes daily. I’ve had trouble getting the last episodes. I can’t get 158 in English or anything past that. This really sucks…anyone know of anyplace on the internet where you can get the last episodes in english for free? Please help me out. From everything I heard the last episodes are not available and haven’t even come out on the internet in English. What. No can it be

Alright, so I’m about 10 episodes from finishing the series. I don’t have any kind of Pay Tv so I’m so glad it’s possible to get it of the internet. I love Inuyasha. I like just about every character on the show, cept Naraku though I use to think he has a nice voice.

I got a job today. It’s the best Birthday present anyone can ask for, to get a job on you Birthday! I had been trying for ages and only getting knocked back at interveiws if I even got an interveiw. So I’m so happy about getting a job, I can’t wait to start work.