40winx

I need to try and remember that not everything that happens to me is a major crisis. What will shape me will stick and the rest is life….so if it’s really a big deal then I need to learn my lesson and move on.

I’ve done and said hurtful things. So has he. I’ve meant them for a little while and then been sorry and felt guilty. So has he. I’ve seen our future one minute and then turned my back on it the next. So has he.

Sometimes I’m really scared that I don’t know him at all. But I don’t want to stop. If being connected, in whatever way, to one person for the rest or even part of your life was super easy and uncomplicated then people probably wouldn’t do it. Right?

with school on my parents dime anyhow. I was not going with a clear goal in mind. There was never a purpose or end result to my formal education other than to be educated. Which is fabulous! and totally amazing and i am grateful that i had the opportunity however i let them and myself down last semester and until i set a clearer goal for myself in terms of my degree i will not spend their money. i know myself enough to know that i have always done things in my own time. I will go back when the time is right but until then i will continue to study hard and pay attention…. learning from both experience and application.