¤ A new year, new possibilities!
¤ Starting to think of my goals for 2014 – excited!
¤ Making a fresh super smoothie (kale, spinach, spirulina, wheat grass, chia seeds, coconut water, lime) for the fourth day in a row – all the nutrients makes me feel so energetic, so much more awake, so less in need of coffee :) loove it
¤ Relaxing at home in my pjs
loving each day's Life List
1. get in the best shape of my life
2. find at least one thing each day that makes me happy and record it everyday for a year
3. read 52 books in 52 weeks
4. stop wasting time
5. start writing again
6. get up when my alarm clock goes off
7. be closer to my brother
8. Believe in myself
9. express my feminist ideals more
10. send more letters
11. encourage other people
12. let him go
13. Give 4000 cheers
14. Practice Yoga
15. put some thought into weekends so they don't just pass me by
16. be a freelance translator
17. exercise three times a week
How I did it: I applied for jobs day in and day out without fail, getting little to no response most of the time, until one day when I started getting interviews. Then I focused very hard on doing really well in the interview and then, wham, I had a job offer :) Read how I did it…
How I did it: I started this a few years ago when I moved away from home - sending letters every month or so as well as birthday/christmas/anniversery cards. They absolutely love it. Sadly, Grandma passed away this year, but one of the last things she said to me was how much she enjoyed my letters. Priceless. Writing a short letter really doesn't take as much time as it may seem. Do try it. It's well worth it. Read how I did it…
How I did it: I just sat down and tried to come up with things - sometimes it was easy, other times really hard - but I tried to do it regularly. And it's a great list to have - just look at it whenever you feel bad and you'll realise there are loads of things about you that are great. A real confidence booster! Read how I did it…
¤ A new year, new possibilities!
2014. I love how a new year makes me feel like this is the time to really implement the changes I wish to make, to really improve myself and my life. To me, getting in the best shape of my life is not just about fitness, it’s about general health and about mental health too.
Being a 30-year old single women working full-time, I’ve got more freedom, time to use as I please and money just for myself than I’ll probably ever have again. So if not now, when?
I want to drink less, eat even healthier (more veg every day), exercise more, feel good about myself and my body and really move on from the past so I can meet someone new.
To kick-start this year:
¤ I’ve pledged to consume no alcohol or red meat in January
¤ I’m starting a two-week intense bikram yoga course tomorrow
¤ I’m starting every day with a fresh spinach, kale, spirulina/wheat grass and lime smoothie with my berry porrige
¤ And I have decided I have to tell him, this week, once and for all, to leave me be so that I can have a chance to find happiness with someone else.
I’ve yet to decide whether to include obvious sugar in the pledge (ie. cakes, buns, ice cream etc). I don’t eat much of that normally anyway, so we’ll see. But to be fair, I rarely eat meat either.
I have realised something. I am a confrontation avoider extraordinaire. I live in denial. Or in crazy lala-land if you will. It’s not that I am an idiot. I am not. But I am really really good at ignoring red flags and focusing on seeing what I want to see. It’s like I mentally close my eyes, put my hands over my ears and sing lalalalalala until I’ve managed to ignore ignore ignore ignore the issue away. Only it doesn’t really disappear.
He is a lier,completely selfish, only looking out for himself.
I KNOW this, but I am often completely blinded by the confidence, charm, sweet talk that he uses to get what he wants from me and everyone else around him.
Occasionally he shows his true colours in such a way that not even I can ignore it. I get MAD, let him know, and he waits it out because in a day or two I have buried the issue and behaves like nothing’s happened. Every time. Hell, I’ll probably even apologise for getting angry. He’s good at making me feel guilty when he is the one in the wrong. It’s how he gets away with all sorts.
This is ridiculous. I am an adult, not some love-sick little girl. I deserve something real, something genuine, something based on love, not this waste of time situation. If I had a friend, sister, daughter involved in something this pointless I would want to drag her out of it, no matter how much she’d be kicking and screaming at first.
I have to drag myself out of this. I don’t want to, but I so deserve to. I need to put the focus back onto me and save myself.