8thLunation

Today is the first day of my cleanse. I realized that I am in the ideal position in life to be doing this… at home with family, recovering alcoholic, no appetite whatsoever due to relationship problems (which are, in turn, due to alcohol). I’ve been wanting to do this for years now and here is my golden oppurtunity. I think the lemonade itself tastes delicious and I’m looking forward to the benefits of this cleanse that others have experienced. Congratulations to everyone on their success!

my spiritual inclinations often get pushed to the side by life’s distractions, i.e. relationships, alcohol binges, meaningless work, etc… while i value a good relationship, the other things i can do without. every year around samhain there is a strong stirring within me. i feel an irresistible desire to be doing something spiritual at this time. in years past these feelings would usually be drowned out with alcohol, but it is time to move on and live my life in a manner that is true to myself. i began tonight by communing with nature outside in the moonlight. it was very personal and unscripted and it felt quite moving. i would like to continue and evolve this little ritual as it was good in my soul. i also believe that networking and having fellowship with other pagans is important yet challenging as they tend to be rare, eccentric, and just plain hard to find!

I didn’t realize how much i needed that communion with all the things that really matter: Earth Mother, Cousin Moon, the living trees and nature spirits that permeate everything. They are everywhere, yet so often ignored in our electric society. It certainly was good going out there feeling the coolness of the night, announcing that I am here and that I know there is magic yet in the world. It is all magic. Life is magic. How easily I’d forgotten and slipped into the monotonous mouse wheel of work without meaning. Back to the fringes with me! and there I hope to find others like me. Those for whom this is not the way.