still haven’t gotten you are beautiful stickers yet!!
Ever since freshman year of college started, I’ve only been eating more and more. Gosh, all those fast foods in between breaks every single day is totally killing me. Instead of losing ten, I just gained like ten more. I feel so fat, even though people don’t notice it.. But I know it’s there. I see in my love handles, my stomach, my thighs.. Ugh, Im beginning to hate myself even more.
i wake up with a smile everyday. it was hard after the breakup, but i’m getting better.
Remember, it takes 72 muscles to frown and only 14 to smile. So why not?
fun! one of my besties mike taught me on my 18th birthday! though i stalled a couple times, but i totally get how it works and i’m a really fast learner, so i pretty much got the hang of it! but, i’ll probably buy an automatic car, simple because i feel safer in it. ha!
it just makes you feel better knowing there’s more to life than holding funny grudges and stressing on planning your next revenge. it’s just nicer to forgive them. and peaceful. and nice. it makes the other person feel better to.
it makes you feel better somehow.. sometimes… SOMETIMES i even feel good about myself because i exercised. =)
my ex boyfriend cheating on me.
then lying about it to my face.
then tried to blame it on me.
broken promises makes me angry.
instead of LOSING some, i GAINED 20. i’ve been so depressed and stress out lately, i just don’t know what to do with myself. oh, i feel so worthless. it’s not noticeable, but i can feel the weight. it was only yesterday, when i decided to get over the drama and danced a whole bunch. AND THEN! i lost some five pounds. yay me. i love it SELF DETERMINATION, don’t you?
but i’ve tried EVERYTHING to the best of my ability to make him happy, but in the end, i’ve realized that how he feels or wants to feel is NOT up to me. i cannot control or change his feelings and/or emotions. we are all our OWN person, and no one can stop us from doing that. i was faithful. i was hopeful. i was optimistic about our relationship, however, he decided to rip my heart apart like it was no other. he cheated on me and he let me find out.
is to take baby steps until i reach my goal. so this is what i did today:
-turn on the stove
-boiled water
-watched water boil
-turn off the stove
later on…
-heated a sausage egg mcmuffin from mickey d’s
-ate it with ketchup
I’m doing good. Maybe better tomorrow. Til then!
goal: lose ten pounds
result: gain 3 pounds
current weight: 112 lbs
man, i hate myself for not trying.
