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1. Love myself
1 entry 4,411 people
2. get a job
10,477 people
3. maintain a B average
1 person
4. become more spiritual
381 people
5. Say "no" every time i feel like it and not feel guilty
377 people
6. surprise myself
1 cheer 55 people
7. read as much as possible
26 people
8. become healthier
162 people
9. publish a book of my poetry
15 people
10. smile more
3,334 people
11. let my hair grow out
1 entry 61 people
12. watch all 6 seasons of sex and the city
53 people
13. Fall in real love: ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love.
1,288 people
14. fall asleep in a field of wheat
2 people
15. run in the rain
40 people
16. Learn to play the cello
761 people
17. Sing at the top of my lungs without shame
4 people
18. Pose nude for an art class
281 people
19. Skydive
10,167 people
20. Have a library of my own
2 people
21. Stop caring what other people think of me
3,973 people
22. become a well known artist
10 people
23. See Kate Nash perform
3 people
24. live in New York City
2,667 people
25. Go to Sarah Lawrence College
2 people
26. meet miranda july
5 people
27. perform on Broadway
163 people
28. make love in an old library
1 person
29. Kiss a beautiful stranger
2 people
30. Dance on a roof top in Italy
2 people
31. Spend a year in the UK
4 people
32. Own a Villa in Tuscany
33 people
33. Discover my purpose.
190 people
34. learn to speak fluent French
96 people
35. Learn to cook..really cook
28 people
36. Spend one year not dating and work on myself
1 person
37. lose weight
36,310 people
38. Get a tattoo
20,249 people
39. Have a disco party
4 people

Recent entries

Yesterday I was so close to chopping the bit of hair I have off. It’s so hard! Especially for someone who used to cut her whenever she felt like. But I want to teach myself discipline and I want long hair for the summertime.
It’s just now growing past my shoulders.. and I would like for it to grow to my breasts. I have 3 months of time for it to do so.

Feb 16, 2008, 07:07AM PST | 0 comments

love myself

Road blocks and mental fits 21 months ago

I don’t know if I have ever loved myself. I suppose I never even considered it until 2 or 3 years ago..

I have always had trouble with motivation and just being positive but lately something has been different. Last month I had the worst week of my entire life. I did. I was broken up with, my family and I were fighting and my parents were talking about divorce, I had an allergic reaction a certain pill and was at the hospital until 1 AM and THEN on my way home I almost hit a deer and then a tree. Needless to say things were hellish. I just took a deep breath and then a good look around at the things I was doing, the people I was friends with and so on.

I realized this is it. This is MY life.
It wasn’t my fault that my stepfather was a 35 year old baby who couldn’t handle things. IT WAS my fault that I was so lazy and cowardice. I need to stop covering up my problems with men. I need to figure me out and then work to love and better that person. I need to get the grades that reflect me.

So, a month later here I am.. my grades are much better but I am not stopping until I reach the top. My family life has new problems.. but the old are settled. I went to an audition for arts school and will most likely (hopefully) be attending the school in question for my last years of high school!

I’ll update my progress with getting to know myself. :)

Feb 15, 2008, 04:15PM PST | 3 cheers | 1 comment

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