Alishaj

I am on day FOUR of the master cleanse. today I did the salt water flush and impressed myself by not throwing up. what helped me was the indian-yogi style mug I drank it from and the article I read prior promising yogi’s have done it for millenia. sunday night I drank a tea instead and woke up in the middle of the night and was literally flung to the ground by dizziness. I broke the bathroom mirror and didn’t realize it until the next morning. it was like waking up completely wasted and confused. is this because of the TOXINS>>?

so today is better, I’m more wary of the tea now. that senna is some powerful stuff. scary.

today I have craved food more than ever. everything looks good…my bosses chicken tomato parmigiana, a caesar salad, chocolate candy…. I can just imagine how that cream tomato sauce would taste. I was great at lunch-I went to my car to refill and avoided food areas.

I DID get hungry – stomach growling – today and I was thinking it could be because of a mint tea that I drank in the morning. It may not have been organic enough. Has this happened to anyone else!?

I have 2 crappy boards and a brand new “used” wetsuit…now just waiting for the good waves and california sun…

Are those that never have an ‘aha’ moment destined to fall in the ranks?

Or should I just choose something. that I like enough.

I’m 23, if my ‘passion’ hasn’t become clear to me yet, does that mean it is not ever going to? And say it finally does, won’t I probably be too behind to compete?