... but first I need some work on becoming an amazing dancer. I’ve gotten pretty complacent because I’ve always been one of the better students in my classes. Tanya came to my last class with Nadira though, and she’s been dancing for 10 years compared to my 1. I wasn’t terrible compared to her, but I certainly wasn’t head and shoulders the best. I was maybe a little better on a couple of things and she was clearly better at other things, and that was a little hard. Also, I normally feel good about myself in bellydance class, but Nadira is really long and slender and beautiful and graceful… and Tanya is kind of abnormally scrawny for a bellydancer… so when seeing myself reflected next to them in the studio’s not-yet-mounted mirrors (that are leaning in a way that take 2 feet off of my height and add 4 onto my width), I felt dumpy and dowdy and wanted to cry. I need to tough this out because I’m clearly learning with Nadira, and I want to learn to be brave enough to try things that I’m not immediately perfect at. It’s uncomfortable though.
Amanda's Life List
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1. unpack my boxes and make my bedroom a productive, comfortable, rejuvenating space
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2. Write daily
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3. make my development as a dancer a priority again
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4. Lose 3 more pounds by July 31
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5. sort out my finances
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6. become a regular at the gym
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7. Practice Yoga
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8. “Have a kick ass body that stops traffic without jumping in front of it”
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9. learn to ride a horse
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10. learn to sew
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11. Learn to Salsa
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12. learn the arabic alphabet
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13. help an adult learn to read
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14. Speak French fluently
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15. take more photos
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16. Perform a bellydance solo in public
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17. visit my friends in Mexico
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18. flirt more
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19. get out more
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20. get better at keeping in touch with people who are important to me
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21. do the splits
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22. fly a kite
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23. revamp my wardrobe
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24. Accomplish something every day
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25. dance every day
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26. Do 43 things i've never done before!
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27. go back to Montreal before the end of Summer
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28. have a profile picture on facebook that I actually like
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29. have an astrological reading
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30. see more live music
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31. make the most of where I live
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32. identify 100 things that make me happy... again
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33. write an honest letter to J, even if I never send it
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34. buy a really amazing bellydance costume
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35. maintain a list of future goals
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Recent entries
I'm really looking forward to doing this...
2 weeks ago
Finally!
2 weeks ago
I’m 5.2 lbs. lighter than my start weight. I have a long way to go, but it feels terrific to be making some progress.
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3 weeks ago
I’ve been here for months, yet my bedroom still looks like I just moved in. Actually, it looks worse than it did when I first moved in. Clearly, waking up to choas every day isn’t the best way to start my morning. I’ve been resisting settling in because I don’t want to stay here for a long time, but the boxes are really getting to me. It will be less work to just repack in a couple of months when I’m ready to move on than it is to rummage through boxes to find what I need all the time. My goal is to mark this complete before August 5 (of THIS year, ideally).
