AmorVincitOmnia

Thursday I got the outline for my pirate ship cover up done . I can’t wait until it’s all colored in ! After this is all finished up I want to get a tattoo on my leg.

I lost my virginity a couple of months before my twenty first birthday to someone I loved and I thought loved me but he ended up being a complete and total jerk and I really regret everything that happened. I don’t want to have sex again until I’m married.

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart” Helen Keller

Sometimes I miss my long hair but I have a baby face and already look much younger than my real age. My long hair made it 20 times worse. I’ll have to take a picture of my pixie haircut when I fix my camera and show how different I look now.

Joseph shall return to Canaan , grieve not
Hovels shall turn to rose gardens, grieve not.
If a flood should arrive, to drown all that’s alive
Noah is your guide in the typhoon’s eye, grieve not

“One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs , Or the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls”

In no particular order

100. Remain close with my current friends and gain new friendships
99. Have my second time be special and romantic
98. Graduate from college
97. Have a career that I love
96. Meet my soulmate and get married
95. Move away from the small town that I grew up in
94. Travel and see the beauty of the world
93. Live in a log cabin in the mountains
92. Don’t worry about what others think of me
91. Show my family how much they really mean to me
90. Always remain true to myself
89. Be openminded
88. Always have my sense of adventure
87. Never be afraid to try new things with my hair no matter how crazy or out there it is
86. Get over my fear of the dark and lightning
85. Live in Hawaii for a few years
84. Experience living in a foreign country
83. Always hold my head high and feel confident
82. Get as many tattoos as I want and not worry about people who think tattoos are cheap or trashy looking
81. live passionately
80. Become a role model to someone
79. Swim with Dolphins
78. Watch the sunset with someone special
77. Kiss under a waterfall
76. See the beauty in everything.
75. Hike the Appalachian trail
74. Ride in a hot air balloon
73. Ride with sled dogs in Alaska
72. Accept my failures as well as others
71. Skydive
70. Have an Earth Shattering Kiss
69. Always have time in my life to read a good book
68. Learn how to belly dance
67. Take Kick boxing lessons
66. Embrace my romantic side
65. Always be a proud Hokie
64. Never be afraid of looking stupid while I’m dancing . Just get out there and have a good time
63. Volunteer
62. Adopt a child
61. Dance in the rain
60. Go to more concerts
59. Learn how to sail
58. Get my motorcycle license
57. Own a Harley
56. Have a comfortable stylish wardrobe
55. Grow my own Garden
54. Broaden my taste in food
53. Become more spiritual
52. Buy new glasses and start wearing them
51. Be a warrior
50. Get more piercings
49. Go on a road trip with no destination in mind
48. Receive a full body massgae
47. Be more patient
46. Learn how to cook
45. Make love in the rain
44. Make love on the beach
43. Always continue to learn
42. Take care of my body
41. Go Ice skating at least once
40. Save money for retirement
39. Take pictures to document my life
38. Never give up
37. Feel more comfortable expressing my feelings
36. Have people look at me and think that I’m sweet but also a strong kick ass woman
35. Be fluent in another language
34. Try a new thing every month
33. Learn how to play an instrument
32. Never be too old for winter bonfire nights with my friends
31. Be spontaneous
30. Take yoga classes
29. Control my temper
28. Recycle
27. Hike the trail to Machu Picchu
26. Go on a cruise to Alaska
25. Surf in Hawaii
24. Be a nude model for an art class
23. Go skinny dipping
22. Continue to have good credit
21. Have my much needed alone time
20. Always work hard
19. Vote
18. Learn to Salsa
17. Feel understood on a deep level
16. Speak my mind
15. learn the constellations
14. Take a hot bubble bath with my soulmate
13. Scuba Dive
12. Learn how to snowboard
11. Remain Classy
10. Keep my sense of humor
9. End the negative stereotypes of Feminists
8. Never allow a man to control my life or come between me and my friends
7. Sit down and have a good cup of tea every day
6. See the positive in every situation
5. Always remember what a great person my mother was
4. Eat healthy
3. Take great care of my dog
2. Don’t allow myself to gossip and be hateful
1. Live my life however it makes me happy

I still have my insecure moments but I’ve learned to believe men when they say I have an attractive body .I’ve also began to accept my body the way it is and realize that my body is sexy including my flaws.

It’s nice to know how to do outdoor stuff so you won’t have to depend on a man to do it for you . I’m still working on holding the ax right but I’m getting a lot better.

I got my belly button pierced a few weeks ago. I was a little nervous but it didn’t hurt. The worst part for me was the pressure from the clamps. It was extremely sore afterwards but now I forget that its there most of the time.

“Only a man who has felt ultimate despair is capable of feeling ultimate bliss”-The Count of Monte Cristo

I want to dye my hair a dark red.

“im selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. i make mistakes, i am out of control, and at times hard to handle. but if you cant handle me at my worst, than you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best.”

“A story like mine should never be told. For my world is as forbidden as it is fragile. Without its mysteries it cannot survive. I certainly wasn’t born to the life of a geisha. Like so much in my strange life, I was carried there by the current.”(Sayuri Narration)

“Things are never what they seem, the peacocks static melodies. So who do you love? Who do you trust when your friends take a match to your front lawn? A panicked face makes the peacock proud. So who do you love? Who do you trust? Who do you kill when your senator drags out your first born? A panicked face makes the peacock proud.” – The Blood Brothers

“For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, which we still are just able to endure, and we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us. Every angel is terrifying.”

“You don’t love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her.”

~Anon

“A bright thing can nurse a dark heart, even as light may lie hidden inside a dark creature”

“Love is one of the hardest words to say and one of the easiest to hear.”

This is definitely an ongoing goal for me but I’m much better than I use to be. The whole counting to ten deal and taking a deep breath doesn’t work with me it just gives me more time to concentrate on how mad I really am.