so many things have happened since i last wrote about this goal. i haven’t completed it yet but i have had so many advancements towards it. and to be honest- i a m so proud of myself.
i have learned so much about myself over the past 6 mnths. and all those hidden things have been shown- brought out of the dust. and i am dealing with them. i have accepted much of what has happened. and the effects these things have had on my life atm, are slowly disappearing. i am getting back to myself.
Yes, i still have issues, i am still learning to cope with all those things i repressed. BUT i am much happier, i am not snapping at the people i love, i am not partaking it the behaviours that i hate but had no control over.
i am still seeing people who can help me- people who i can trust, talk to and who can support me, but i am also learning to help myself.
the control is beggining to be put back into my hands.
:)
Jun 29, 10:11PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
ok. so you know i’m talking about those ‘controling issues’ well its tough as shit i can tell you.
everything in my past is coming up, everything i have repressed, shut out, ignored. you know the stuff- when bad stuff happens adn you dont wanna deal with it.
and its all coming out into the open- and i hate it. i mean its good cos im working things out but my god- how do you deal with all this stuff at once, specially since life is still going on around you. stressful things still happen in the present let alone dealing with the stuff from the past.
but i’m getting there and the fact that i am learning to talk about it, bring these things up. means i am beginning to be able to control them myself- i am beginning to take the control back.
but it’s not easy- and it will take a lot more time to come.
But its happening.
Apr 26, 11:56PM PDT | 0 comments
Its fantastic- all weekend i have been able to read my book- i’m 3/4s thru! up to the big fight! Whhh Hooo! i love being able to read my book again!
So cant wait to have this goal complete! then i can start on the next and final book of the series!!!
YAY!!! :)
Apr 26, 11:48PM PDT | 0 comments
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