I didn’t give up..I just had it on there twice LOL
AnneOnimus's Life List
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1. Lose 25-30lbs
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2. eat better and exercise more
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3. get out of debt
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4. Better manage my money
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5. own a home
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6. have the same faith in myself that I have in others
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7. be more confident
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8. be more social
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9. be a better friend
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10. finish college
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11. get better at playing weiqi/Go
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12. learn photography
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13. Learn Japanese
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14. buy a digital camera
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15. get a new computer
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16. see at least 5 of my favorite artists live before I'm 30
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17. learn to design and sew period costumes
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18. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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19. become fluent in as many languages as possible
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20. learn to make sushi
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21. Learn Portuguese
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22. learn how to sing in that punk scream voice
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I’m happy to stay home and curl up with my computer or book. I’ve never been social or out going. My parents still tell me about when I was younger, and how I’d go off on my own and read whatever magazine or book was lying around.
I don’t like groups or meeting new people. The only time I can stand being in a crowd is when I’m at a concert. I avoid the mall and stores before holidays so I won’t have to be around so many people.
However, I’ve made one good step in the right direction. I took up a new hobby: I play Go. I started learning through a one time program at the local library and liked it so much that I took a chance and went to the weekly meetup the next day. I’ve only missed one week (and I couldn’t help that). I don’t know a single person there and I’m terrible at remembering names, but they are the sweetest bunch of guys and are understanding of my bad memory. I had been learning sewing from a woman I met through craigslist (another HUGE leap, because I had to meet with her alone in her home and I’m terrible with one on one interaction) and she became a good friend through that…
So…I guess the moral of the story is…if my ass can do it, so can you. It just takes small steps sometimes.
I root for everyone BUT me. In the game of life I’m as much the visitor as I am the home team. I’m always telling my friends how they can reach their amazing goals, I’m always there to cheer them on. But my side of the field is always quiet. This isn’t to say my friends aren’t behind me, they are. However, I’M not behind me. I’m in front, blocking my own way. Because I don’t believe I can do what I know I can. I don’t believe it’s a worthwhile endeavor, no matter what it is. I tell myself to just sit down and accept that this is the way things will always be for me.
