Applesdontfloat

This has been a struggle of mine for some time now.. and it has put such limitations on the way I live my life.

I remember realizing that I had this problem when I was in high School. Even when I knew I shouldn’t, every day I continued to question everything I did, things I said, and the clothes I wore based on what other people did or said.
I lived in fear of judgement from other people, and still partially do. Being in College has helped me a lot just seeing so many people being themselves, and meeting people who are who they are without worrying about how others perceive them.
I want to be like that, I want to be myself.

I love the French language, I’ve been a fan as long as I could remember. Finding the motivation and time to apply to learning it was the tough part. I don’t want to go through my life without taking time to make use of opportunities around me to better my French-speaking skills.
While the ability to simply converse in French is something I found to be useful on my awesome Parisian adventure last summer (which me and a friend blew waaay too much of our money on) I want to be able to go further! To be able name the bones in the human body, to pick up slang of the locals, and to understand it almost or as well as I do English.
I figure if it’s something I want to do, then I’ll have to start sometime.. why not sooner than later?