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Since I started to hang out with older, more mature folks I have felt that my lack of knowledge has put me to shame. By lack of knowledge, I mean I am highly educated. I graduated from an Ivy League (though unpopular, but still Ivy). However, I don’t feel knowledgeable enough. So What? I went to a great college. STILL I feel that I have a very narrow knowledge which would come with the fact that I had focus on(read: choose or die) a major in a particular few subjects instead of just taking a hodge-podge collage of courses to broaden my overall knowledge and appreciation for life in general. I have refused to watch any TV (except the Olympic Games) for the rest of the year. I just want to to read, read, read, read, read, read, read, and READ s’more. I plan on moving into Borders and spending plenty of time browsing through the obscure, the enlightening, the suprising, the entertaining, the weird, adventurous blahdee blah world of literature. I will even try peruse literature written in foreign tongue. I just want to stop feeling like a Smart Dummy.

Technically I have been kissed about 3 times in my life when I was 5, 9, and 10. However, I’m 23 now and childhood kisses really don’t count as real romantic kisses, only as curiousity inspired experimentations. It was so long ago since I was kissed something reminiscent of a romantic kiss. I could hardly remember what being kissed on the mouth feels like. I will probably pass out when I finally do get really kissed again. These things that seem so easy and everyday for other people are just so ethereal and evasive when it comes to me. lol. Sometimes I wonder if I am cursed or something?! Lol. I will try to get kissed for real this summer. Hopefully. :-)

Right now I’ve been really thinking about stripping because the lack of funding has been keeping me from following most of my dreams. I want to do some world traveling, get my own car, some minor plastic surgery, update my wardrobe, take piano lessons, take guitar lessons, take various forms of dance lessons, hire a personal trainer, buy my parents nice things, quit my two boring jobs, pay off and get rid of credit cards, pay off student loans, move out of my parents and save up for med school. I think stripping is a really fast way to earn a lot of dough for doing basically something that is not hard to do at all, getting men hard. Lol. The more I think about the things I would be able to do with money the more I want to go for it. I’m young, fit, and good-looking I most likely won’t have a chance again once I get older, married, with children. Now is the time. I may become a stripper by the end of the summer because right now Cash Rules Everything Around Me.