Ashley868




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  1. 1. write a novel
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  2. 2. learn Tarot
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    256 people
  3. 3. kill myself
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  4. 4. be forgiven
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    84 people
  5. 5. Write more
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  6. 6. Stop wallowing in self pity
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  7. 7. get a job
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  8. 8. not feel ugly
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    153 people
  9. 9. Save money
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  10. 10. Go to Canada's Wonderland.
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  11. 11. lose weight
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  12. 12. Lose 30 pounds
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  13. 13. Stop emotional eating
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  14. 14. master cleanse
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  15. 15. stop being suicidal
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  16. 16. write a book
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  17. 17. lose 10 pounds
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  18. 18. lose 15 pounds
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  19. 19. lose my virginity
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  20. 20. Fall in love
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  21. 21. Harry Potter
    154 people
  22. 22. read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
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  23. 23. read harry potter 7
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  24. 24. be a better person
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  25. 25. be pretty
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  26. 26. care less about what others think
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  27. 27. learn palmistry
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  28. 28. go back to school
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self harm
This happened today. 9 months ago

The one below the fresh I did a while ago It’s healed. I did the fresh one today. I’m not proud of it. The pic isn’t that great because it’s a cell phone one.

I haven’t cut in months. Today when I was walking down the street these kids about ten years old started to yelled: “You fucking ugly bitch!” over and over again, and they kept yelling it as they walked further down the street.

I’ve learned to handle people my own age calling me ugly, but when it’s little kids it’s worse. Normally kids respect people who are older them, but I can’t even have children respect me. People my own age won’t respect me because I am ugly, and now it’s kids as well.

I got so worked up that I ran home, grabbed a knife and cut myself all down my arm. This was hours ago, but it’s still bleeding.

I was ready to do it to my wrists.

I feel pathetic because I am 22 years old.



go back to school
Untitled 10 months ago

I applied to go back in September. I’m just waiting to see if I am accepted.



Fall in love (read all 2 entries…)
sometimes think it's too late 10 months ago

I am twenty-two years old and I’ve never had a boyfriend. I know I am still young, but guys are going to be be turned off by my lack of experience. Also, I’ve heard guys feel a little scared off by virgins because they think the girl will become all clingy or they’ll wonder if there is something wrong with her.
Although that might not be true in case. People will understand why I haven’t, I am the ugliest person in the world. People tell me to my face all the time.



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