I am deleting the goals stop procrastinating, wake up when my alarm goes off, keep my room tidy, and be organized, as they all fall under this category. I suppose other things such as “eat healthier” do as well but that one needs special attention.
I didn’t add an entry last night because I was seriously considering calling this whole thing off. I spent the day with my family and my mother prepared a delicious (and healthy) looking dinner of brown rice veggie stir fry with salad and homemade bread, and I wanted to join in SO badly. I began to think that this cleanse is lunacy. Luckily I held my resolve, but I was having major doubts last night. I’m still having doubts that this cleanse is right for my body, but I’m going to give it one more day and see how I feel tomorrow. After 3 full days I haven’t noticed any of the changes that people rave about. I know it takes time, but I still feel exactly how I did before, just hungrier. I think my my biggest problems are A) The SWF as I find it detestable, abhorrent, repulsive, abominable,and ungodly. Along with a myriad of other negative adjectives. My other issue is B) That i detest the LA. Hate it. I think it’s so gross and I have grown to loathe the taste of it more and more as this process goes on. Because of this, I have as of yet not been able to consume more that 1/2 of the daily allotment I prepare for myself. I’m only getting through about 30 oz which is just not enough to sustain me for a full day. But I am going to make a huge effort today to get through at least 45 oz.
Now, an update on more unpleasantries: I skipped my Senna tea last night and also the SWF this morning for fear of having to deal with “interruptions” at work today. I will get back on the wagon with the tea tonight. Hell if I am going through all of this for nothing; I’m sticking to the rules from now on.
So, I’m struggling, but I’m going to carry on. However, if I haven’t seen some positive changes by day 5 I’m out.
Just kicked off day 3 with an absolutely revolting SWF. ugh. I finished MOST of it but just couldn’t get the last few (ok 6 or 7) ounces down. I couldn’t. By that time I was gagging horribly and even taking it sip by sip failed. It had better still work though.
Already whipped up my LA for the day so so far so good, but I have a feeling it’s gonna be another long day. I am actually looking forward to going to work tomorrow to have something to distract me from this routine. I haven’t gone out with any friends this weekend because of the cleanse.
So far I have noticed to physical changes – except that my tummy is a little flatter, and no changes in energy either. We’ll see.
Just about to go to bed. I have a headache again and am not feeling too hot. I want to quit but I won’t because I believe in my decision to see this through and I want to prove myself that I can do this. I may very well quit at day 7 though, we’ll see.
Maybe I’m just feeling so doubtful because I’m in a really bad mood right now.
I am starving and craving a veggie pizza and reeses pieces REALLY BADLY. I’ve decided I can’t watch tv any more on this cleanse because the commercials make me want food too badly.
I have to keep reminding myself that I’m doing something really good for my body and that I’ll start to see positive changes soon. I was so proud of myself yesterday evening so I’m looking forward to that feeling again after the completion of Day 2.
I only finished half of my allotment of LA yesterday and at the rate I’m going today it looks like I might only finish half again. I really hate the taste of it. Sweet and spicy do not agree with my palate…bleck. Time for another glass…
Thankfully, I awoke this morning feeling refreshed and no headache whatsoever. It was very difficult to fall asleep last night because of my splitting headache that just kept getting worse but I just put on some Mazzy Star and let the gentle tunes rock me to sleep.
This morning has been good. I’ve just whipped up my LA for the day (although I am now totally out of lemons, trip to Whole Foods soon) and finished a morning cup of Senna tea. I could not bear the thought of a SWF as it made me feel terrible yesterday and I woke up in such high spirits, but I am going to try to do one either tonight or tomorrow morning.
So far I have experienced none of the dreaded day 2 symptoms, maybe they are coming? But as for now I’m just going to enjoy feeling good.
I’ve just finished my Senna tea and am going to bed now because I feel awful. I have a headache and feel queasy.
I feel a great sense of accomplishment that I made it all the way through Day 1, but I am worried about tomorrow because I know I will only feel worse.
So I’m nearing the end of day 1 and I’m feeling pretty hungry and craving food so I’m fearful of what’s in store for tomorrow. However, I still feel very resolute in my decision to see this cleanse through and thus far feel no desire to break down.
Reasons I am doing this cleanse now:
1. I gained a significant amount of weight studying abroad last semester and need to shed the pounds.
2. I am using this cleanse as a springboard to eating vegan again. After the cleanse I am going to significantly cut the amount of animal products I consume.
3. Hopefully this cleanse will get me back in the habit of healthy eating. My long distance boyfriend was in town for the past month, and while he has here I ate horrendously (lots of eating out, friend foods, sweets, etc.)
4. I am also hoping this cleanse will rid me of my emotional attachment to food.
5. All the other health benefits of riding my body of toxins.
The reason I am doing this cleanse now, specifically, is that I have a brief 3 week window before I start school and work again.
So far today I have only consumed about half of my daily allotment but I have been drinking as much as I can. I think the reason I’ve consumed so little is that I have been very inactive today, and took a huge nap. I am planning on finishing up my liter within the next hour, drinking my senna tea and going to bed by 10.
Today I officially started the cleanse. Yesterday I drank only fresh fruit juice excepting a small bowl of squash soup in crackers around dinner time, to prepare my stomach for lack of food.
This morning I kicked off my cleanse with the incredibly horrid salt water flush. I could on get about 3/4 of the solution down but in any case it definitely had its desired effect.
It took a lot more lemons than I thought it would to produce 14 tbps of lemon juice (I used 7) but I’m going to buy bigger lemons for tomorrow.
So far so good, I’m not really hungry but it is only day 1. The lemon juice solution tastes ok but the salt water was nearly unbearable. Not sure I’ll be doing that again.
I am not doing this cleanse purely for weight loss but for record keeping’s sake I am starting off at 5’9, 170 lbs.
Today I have officially decided that I am going to complete the cleanse. I will start tomorrow on an all liquid diet, then move on to orange juice the next day, and the lemonade the day after. I am going to try and stay on the lemonade for 10 days if possible, but my goal is to make it past 7.
I’ve officially been accepted to spend a semester in Copenhagen, Denmark and now am just going through the paperwork to make it happen.
I leave in January!
I will declare this goal accomplished when my plane ticket has been booked.
it’s 12am! i have been out of class since 2 this afternoon. why have i not touched my homework, you ask? oh, i have better things to do, like rearrange the furniture in my room, alphabetize my cd collection, or lint role each and every piece of clothing i own. stuff like that.
medieval lit will just have to wait.
Although I’m not sure how this is gonna go considering i have about a million pages of medieval lit to read for class : /
This just isn’t happening for me right now. I know I can write, my professors tend to like my work, it’s just that I hate the feeling of writing something that I’m not proud of and I hate the struggle that it takes to turn a piece of trash into something worth reading. Maybe this means that at heart, I’m not really a writer?
I don’t know, I think I used to love it a lot more than I do now. Recently, writing just seems to be a big fat opportunity for failure.
Seriously…. me = carboholic.
Right now I am fighting the urge to bust into the kitchen and attack a loaf of french bread.
It’s disgusting.
And I’m going to make the most of each one of them, God damn it!
I want my twenties to be everything my teens weren’t. In the past I’ve been so self conscious, and anxious, and overly analytical, and I think that’s stopped me from doing a lot of things I should have.
From now on I just want to live with more vitality, do rather than dream about doing(or in conjunction with), travel, learn, meet amazing people, and be in the best shape of my life.
I want to stop waiting for my life to start, waiting for things to magically happen for me; life is happening right now!
Just took one, and God, there is something so amazing about soaking in warm water watching your skin prune. Without a doubt, always makes me feel a little better about life.
Plus they make you smell delighful.
