I don’t have anything to actually forgive myself for. I just need to move on and stop beating myself up.
AutumnSkies's Life List
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1. Get right with God
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2. forgive myself
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3. Get a "real" job
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4. commit random acts of kindness
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5. volunteer more
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6. write haiku on fridays
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7. go back to Australia
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8. travel through Europe
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9. Surf in South Africa
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10. eat healthier
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11. floss regularly.
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12. write more letters
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13. make a dress of my own design
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14. write a book
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15. spend more time on the Lake Michigan beaches
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16. figure out those guy issues
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17. go on an archaeological dig
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18. adopt a little Indian girl
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19. be able to say I lived with Integrity.
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20. brush up on my Spanish
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21. paint more often
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22. go skinnydipping
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23. go to grad school?
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24. go to Morrocco.
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25. get my own place.
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26. hike the appalachian trail
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27. live in Australia
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28. volunteer with Habitat for Humanity
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29. flirt less
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30. make a t-shirt quilt
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31. I will not fear my destiny
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32. write my grandmother every week
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33. Go to therapy
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34. know how to stop negative thoughts. i wish i felt like a good person.
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In counseling this week I learned a bit about why I do certain things. I sometimes defy authority in a silly way, but it’s dumb stuff, like I won’t use a coaster even after having been told to do so several times. And I know it’s dumb, I think about it as I’m doing it, but it’s like I’m too lazy to do it. But it’s more like I’m rebelling in a little way to being controlled. I’ve always had a problem with controlling people having grown up in a household with this issue and so when I’m around someone who I find to be controlling or ridiculous I’ll defy them in this dumb way. So I need to work on being reasonable and conscious of this action to take note of how I’m “rebelling” and whether or not it’s the right way or the right thing to do.
