Autumnfallz

yeah

Eventually I will go and never come back :)

I wana meet new people, make new friends. get outside my little circle of familer faces

I stopped biting my nails and now they are long, as long as i want them anyway and pretty! yay!

with this and my actual journal I am doing pretty good all in all I say I may even be doing more then 1 journal a week

kind of on the same lines as worry for me. working on it though

yesterday while everyone was over at my house, I snuck outside and sat on my front porch playing with the local cat thats been hanging around my house because I dont have the heart to shoo him away. it was nice. to get outside of the crazieness and sneak away.

baby steps

who wouldnt?

I’m not trying to lose weight or gain muscle, I Just want to feel better. doing ballet every day for 12 years and I am tired all the time I don’t feel like I have any energy. I know its becuase of my eating habits. given the choice between water and a soda I am going to choose the soda, I just want my body to feel better. im 21 years old and I feel 80. so I am hoping with better eating habits and excersise outside of ballet I am going to start feeling better

So this weekend being 4th of july, i obviously did bad.. i mean well for what I usually eat bad for my goal. mostly grilled out. I actually made grilled chicken my self… but anyways.

Today:

Wheat Toast and a Juice for breakfest.
Lunch probably a salad and dinner is tacos ( I know not the healthiest of foods but so good)

I did an hour of ballet this morning. and I walked for 15 minutes may not seem alot but wow am i tired,now onward for a whole day of work!

i have been writing a lot, but i find it disorganized i would like to be a little more organized about journaling

I am going to say whats on my mind….

I am curently reading As you like it, Ill let you know how it goes!

Today I will do ONE thing that scares me, I am going to go in the basement, hey its baby steps!

I have a dotted eight musical note on my right shoulder, and i recommend getting something thats completely personal not a fad, it can be an amazing experience.

I would eventually like to learn to be happy being alone, I love being around people but i think the problem is sometimes i feel like i NEED to be around people in order to be happy, I hope to soon be ok and HAPPY being with myself

eating 3 meals a day and not snacking all day long at work

starting today, I woke up
had a
wheat bagel with veggie cream cheese
lunch:
I had a salad with chuncks of brocolii, carrots, romane, green peppers, cucumber, tomato, mushrooms, celary.
Dinner I am having Ministroni(sp?) soup

I will randomly pick a new word a day and learn its meaning.

joining the Gym this week after I get my check.

Going to start going at 7am before work.